So Much For Fanlisting

sentiment: my head hurts
harmony: "19sai" by Shikao Suga

*Nyyyaaaaaarrrrrgggghhhh* I'm getting a lot of headache these days specially when I'm looking at the installation instruction of Enthusiast, a tool for making fanlistings. Yeah call me a despearte but I really wanted to make a fanlisting for Mami Kawada! *grumbles* But that script is way beyond my limit and is about to made its way to the end of my nerves! =__= darn it! I thought I was gonna finish this soon but it leaves me a migraine and my tummy growling. I'm getting hungry... I need something to eat...

The only accomplishment that I did for Mami Kawada was her fansite (courtesy of môi) but the sad thing is, I still don't have my own domain so I still depend on free web hosters... O__O As you know, I'm just a poor guy who still cannot afford to buy/maintain his own domain. And just thinking of the new web terms that I met today like MySQL, database, etc. *uggghhhh* it makes my head hurts... I hope I can cope up with this.

The True Gray

sentiment: all gray
harmony: "no vain" by MELL

This post was supposed to be posted last night but demeet the electricity was out last night due to a nearby fire. It affected us not knowing that the other part of the Soldiers' Hills Village wasn't affected with the black-out. o__o

The vision was all dark. Not to mention I can barely see myself as I was all gray. As in literally, all gray - gray shirt, gray shorts, gray slippers and don't ask about the color of my underwear. It's also gray. XD I'd say it was a big coincidence and I didn't noticed it at first. I just noticed it when the black-out occured.

Tough luck, it lasted more or less 12 hours so the electricity came back at 8am probably because when I woke up, the electric fan's already on. Who knows?

Lately, I downloaded the DivX Author 1.5 so that I will learn how to edit a movie the DivX way and it's a good thing it was a bit easy for me. ^__^ I need to download or search for a serial code somewhere!! The software will expire on the next 30 days. Oh my bad, my bad. I should purchase the product but what can I do? *shows wallet* I have no money... and yet I want to learn how to edit a movie! TT__TT I need to look for a serial code ASAP... and seriously! I have published one movie and I uploaded it in the DivX and it was still subject for approval... xD I made a karaoke version of Beehive by Mami Kawada. Oohhh~ I'm really getting addicted with this song that's why I made one for it. xD I hope it will be approved in no time. XD

The Discovering Phase

sentiment: curious
harmony: "Romancing Train" by move

Before anything else, I just wanted to say that this will no longer be a dramatic post. And yeah, I recovered somehow and I'm happy now. Specially awhile ago because I was able to increase Xianghua's position ranking in the Conquest Mode. XD She is now a Platinum Colonel of the Cerberus with 477 wins and 150 loses. XD haha thank goodness, and I was able to gain more confidence using her because I won when someone challenged me using Nightmare the cheater. Haha!

Now let's start with the spamming again. XD~ I just realized that the time for discovering something new (for me) always come to the unexpected time. Now what am I up to these days? Gackt. YES, you read it correctly, Gackt the rocker. I know to some of you reading this post, this is not something new but for me, it is new. Definitely new since I am more concentrating on trance, techno, ballad musics most of the time just like what I am listening to right now - a mixture of euro-techno trance and used as an ending theme for the anime series Final Fantasy Unlimited. Yeah, move rocks! xD Going back to Gackt, I find his songs rather interesting although rock music is not always in my vocabulary but I'll have to try. ^_^ I also find his single/album covers VERY unique and artistic. And that made me interested on trying him. I listened to Lu:Na just now... Not bad... It's not heavy rock so I kinda like it... Just right for my rock taste. Next time, I will be listening more of his singles when I get the chance. ^_^

Too much problems these days...

sentiment: lonely

harmony: "The Force of Love" by Lia

I know the readers are a bit fed up of my dramatic posts but sorry, it's inevitable this time. So please bear with me. I just wanted to share what happened 2 days ago...

It was a fine Sunday afternoon, when my cousin called to make a favor -- make her a movie out of her pics in Friendster. And being kind, I agreed but I didn't know that she wants to create 4 movies in one sitting!? No kidding. And so we started this by 3pm and we finished this at 9pm. I'd say, it's fine with me if she wants me to create a movie for her but not that too much nee? And that's where the problem rooted.

Just when my cousin went home, my father asked me what did we do since the PC's been working for 8 hours already (I opened it 1pm but my cousin arrived at 3pm). Of course, I said the real reason behind it but what intimidates me is that he ignored it! Instead he started pouting about how we wasted our electricity and he told me on how much I "enjoyed" on wasting the electricity which he finds hard since he has difficulty on how to pay the electric bills. That's when I started to get annoyed. How come I "enjoyed" that deed when it's not for me? And if it weren't for my cousin, the PC would've been shutted down to rest a couple of hours ago. I told my dad that I just did that so that we could finish it in one blowing but instead of listening to my reason, he still insisted his reasoning. He shouted at me and it really made me angry that I made tantrums.

After a while, he asked me why I did that. Of course, I was already intimidated and that he could talk to me in a proper manner with no shouting and slang words and that's where he acted like a monster and pulled me a few times away (of course, I'm only 100lbs. so I can be easily caried away) with his hands then he asked (actually he was shouting like mad that time) me why did I ade tantrums. "Why? Are you fighting me?" He angrily said but I just kept on glaring at him. "Answer!" I still have no answer. "Answer or else..." I was a bit scared at that time so I stuttered a bit and shouted, "You're already shouting, so I'm shouting too!" Then he slapped (take note "slapped" not punched! Ohh~ what a gurly thing to do~ oh my bad my bad~) me but my mom came out of the room to stop the fight and my sisters tried to stop but my father's still angry.

I'm cutting the story there. The endline of that story is that my dad let me stayed in our room and my mom because he doesn't want to see me glaring at him that time. In the room, my older sister congratulated me for being courageous of answering back to my father. It was good although it was my 1st time to fought back. Why did I fought back? Because I find his reasoning and listening skills very VERY poor. I wouldn't be fighting if I was the wrong one, but in the eyes all people, I think I just did the right stuff. To you, mr./ms. reader of my blog, do you think what I did is just correct? why or why not? Justify.

Follow-up -- because I was mad at my dad, I didn't talked and blessed to him yesterday to show him my anger. But he should be thanking me because my anger only lasts 24 hours. But definitely there will be revenge in the future. That I will guarantee. *ebiilll* XD

Another thing, it looks like my computer time will be not the way I used to have. I think I'll be like a mushroom for a while but nonetheless, I'll still check the net but in the nighttime only.

Being Under the Ground

sentiment: a bit frustrated

harmony: "Water Me" by Bonnie Pink

I know this is going to be a rather dramatic post so to those who really don't like drama, I'd like to apologize but I'm not really in the mood to be happy right now. A lot of things happened before my last post, frustrating ones that is. Specially today, which serves as my Friday the 13th (although it's already July 14th). Another "History repeats itself" realization. I just remembered today how I was teased (with some hints of bullied) when I was in my younger teens. I got mad and cry instantly specially if it's really offensive and if it feels like I've been stabbed in my back with a knife but you won't die. Who wouldn't have been angry if you've been teased by boys right? Yes, the "gay thingy" but in the past it was more worst since kids are more bold and outspoken than adults right? But it's the same worst thing really even if it's not directly.

Earlier in my class, 2 boys (code name "x" and "y") really got into my nerve since they're really annoying even though they're saying they're just joking. Yeah, joking at least would make their day complete but they don't think before they speak. I don't if they're just papansin or just plain f**king idiots. When we were asked to form a group in our Industrial & Agricultural Marketing class, 3 students were chosen as leaders and I was one of the unlucky ones who was chosen by our professor. When she asked me who I wanted to be my groupmates, x and y suddenly butt in saying (actually they shouted and I find that annoying) that they don't want to be in my group. Ok fine right!? I didn't even have plans on taking them since they're such big idiots. Of course, being annoyed, I fought back and told them, "Who's forcing you? If you wanted to be with the other group, so be it!" I'm planning to say more but I don't want to have a fighting scenario there because grades matters first. It's a good thing, some of my close friends volunteered that they would be in my group and it was a big help really. Even though, they won't be reading this post of mine, I still want to thank them.

Then at Financial Management class, x is making some "poor" stomachache scenes pleading that he wants to defecate or something but when we got our 30-minute lunchbreak, he just pretended and said that he wanted to be hugged by me. What am I? An idiot? No way am I gonna do that. I'd rather punch him right in the face than do such idiotic acts! Then one of my close friends brought up that topic while we were eating lunch. I told them that I am really tired with their show and I really want to let them taste their own medicine but one of them said, "Just leave them be. You're not doing anything wrong to them right? I'm just wondering why they tease you..."

I fully agreed with what she said. I'm not doing anything wrong to them. They're the ones who started this junk talk show. Actually, I am just smiling or laughing when they're teasing but behind those laughs, I am really pissed off. I just wanted to remain cool behind those situations. Then it came to my senses that there's something not quite right. I have a feeling that they're planning to make me admit that I'm a homo. Probably, just by analyzing their pranks (I mean jokes). But they won't gain anything from this, I assure them. No matter what they do, I will see to it that I'll just remain silent since I know myself more than anybody else of them aside from my closest and best friends of course. Well who are they in my life right? They don't know anything about me so I just wanted to tell them to just keep their mouth shut and refrain from teasing bullying me. We're already in the adult stage so why act childish and do such annoying deeds? It'll be a waste, mind them.

To have a glimpse of what I am feeling now, try listening to this song. I've been repeating this song while I am making this post.

BONNIE PINK - Wate...

An Unexpected Failure

sentiment: frustrated

harmony: "Beehive" by Mami Kawada

*kuyashii* I still failed the Product & Operations Management quiz after all the effort that I put into it... =_= drat! Specially the last question, if only I showed a solution tehe, I would've got 25 points but I ended up having 15 points for an incomplete answer. I was so intimidated because it was just a common sense answer that's why I answered it quickly. Either way, it will be the answer and yet, aarrrggghhh~! It feels like I want to explode in shards. @_@

But even if that's the case, I still won't give up and will study hard since our lesson awhile ago was a bit simple because it's just include simple average and mean. It's just like Statistics so it's not something complicated that will swirl my mind into loop.

Things didn't turned out fine today really. I was caught up in the brisk rain awhile ago before I arrived at our house. Then there was this spamming boom in the Vindicta forums. I warned those posters to moderate their post and don't stray off the topic and it looks like I was strict. One said that I should be more lenient with them since it's not like the other forums who are strict about spamming. HELLER!? I was being lenient because I haven't PM'd and warned them of their offenses. I was just reminding them of their off-topic conversations because they have done that more than twice already. And as a moderator, of course, I should take some precautionary actions but the outcome is that I was a strict person. Oh well, we have our own perceptions, I guess. But I won't take that as an offensive. I just want to let it out of my head right now since it's like in Tagalog nakokonsensya ako sa ginawa ko.

A Busy Day

sentiment: tired

harmony: "Saikou no Kataomoi" by Sachi Tainaka

Today was supposed to be a holiday for me but because of too many things that I have to do today, I forgot that today is a no-class day. First, I went to school to fix some things of mine but I haven't finished it totally but I'll bet tomorrow it'll be finish. Then I dropped off today at Alabang Town Center to buy blank CDs for storage of files and of course, b-u-s-i-n-e-s-s. XD Yes, it's another start for making sideline business. XD After buying blank CDs, went straight to TimeZone and played SC 2. At first, I was having the greatest luck at playing Xianghua but time comes it became a bit worse. I was able to level up from Platinum Lieutenant to Platinum Captain of Cerberus. The most frustrating part is that, I was able to win 399. It was supposed to be 400 when Ivy destroyed my plan. =_= I'm gonna make my revenge when I come back! Prepare Ivy, I'm gonna make you feel like you're in hell!!! XD=

Next, me and my sisters were invited by my cousin who just came back from Connecticut to eat for dinner in the Mall of Asia. I was kinda not in the mood at first but thinking of the food makes me wanna go *bang!* haha! So I jumped in and went to MoA wit my dad and sisters. I was able to eat my favorite sisig again!! I missed eating that stuff... However, it has no egg on it but it still tastes pretty good. xD

It was a fast-paced period then after a few moments, we said our goodbye since it's already a bit late night. On our way home, we didn't expect that the rain will splash off a bit strong than expected so we have to drop off my other sister to her office at Buendia Ave. Yeah, we didn't able to save gas at all and worse, it was a bit traffic in SLEX so I just came in to post here. xD well that's all for tonight, I guess.

Fred, The Rain and the Cockroach

sentiment: a bit cold

harmony: "Onaji Sora no Shita de (Mixed up ver.)" by Mami Kawada

Today was a cold and miserable day for me, well part of it was my negligence of not bringing an umbrella with me knowing it is already rainy season here in the Philippines. School sucks too specially when receiving a "20" grade quiz. *kuyashiii* Oh well, I think I'll be able to uplift my grade since I did well in the 2nd quiz awhile ago.

Bad luck came when it started raining very strong while me and my friend Michelle was on our way home. We're already in the jeep when the rain suddenly bursted. Worst of luck is that I didn't bring an umbrella... but it's a good thing that I brought my jacket (in case of entering the "freezer" classrooms) and I have my good ol' cap with me. With that, I ventured to the rain and make my way to the covenience & drug stores to buy some necessities. When I came out, the rain was becoming worst by the minute so I decided to wait for it to chill down.

It's a good timing since my father texted me to stay where I am when the rain is still on its mad hour. And yeah, he was asking me where I am and I don't have any credits left in my phone. So no choice, I'll have to buy me load even for just P15.00 (it didn't last long though). But when I was in the cashier of the convenience store, a cockroach suddenly jumped down on me from the ceiling. I was surprised and got itchy for a second back there but I was able to wipe it away from me. My heart's beating a bit fast due to the surprise attack but I didn't let it beat me so I stomped on it. *crispy sound* and it died.

After almost an hour, the rain managed to calm down a bit so I used the opportunity to cross the street and went special on my way home even though my wallet ached because of the special ride. It costs P24 for student and P30 for regular fare and it's not that worth it since it's not that far but for the sake that I am avoiding sickness, I paid for it.

Oh and before the day ends, I just want to post here my newest Mami Kawada signature. XD~

It may look simple for others but it's really one of my Mami Kawada masterpiece nyahaha! Since it's really hard to find a decent pic/image of her in the net. xD~

Happiness despite of despair

sentiment: I was badtrip awhile ago but I'm happy now.

harmony: "I'm Alive" by Ayana

Wow today is really a stressful annd a bit depressing day for me. It's good that I'm still on the going that's why I was able to suppress the feeling. Well I'm still alive and I can still do what I want/need to do so no reason to be down. Back at school, I was able to chat with Kyra (I still want to spell that as "Kira", Marikit-chan! If you're reading this!!) with some things that she needs to know at the very least. My storytelling was cut when 3:00 PM arrives and we both have classes.

At Quantitative Techniques class, I suddenly fell asleep because I find the topic (for today) was boring because it was complicating my sorry eyes and mind. I fell asleep for a few minutes and was asked by my classmate on how did a certain part in the equation arrived to the answer. Well of course, I can't pretend that I know the answer so I just shook my head since I don't know. And yeah, I wasn't able to follow all what my prof taught. Better luck next time. XD

Later at Business Law 2, my classmates forced persuaded me to go down and skip classes but I was not in the mood to follow them (I was dismayed at their faces just by looking at them) since I was looking forward to the class but they kept on forcing me. What I did is I followed them downstairs but instead of going down till the first floor, I dropped by the 2nd floor and pretended to go to the restroom. And I waited there for 2 minutes then went outside and back to the Rm 313. No one was there except for me. I told myself I'm gonna wait until the professor arrives. But you know what? I ended up being the loser because the professor really didn't arrive after waiting for 30 friggin' minutes. Before I went out of school, I finished my assignment for Productions & Operations Management (POM) which was about Decision theory and the Decision tree. I was able to finish it in no time but it was kinda frustrating that I studied for the Business Law 2 and yet the professor didn't arrive?! Ahh... f**king freak, gimme a break.

Then I went to the TimeZone to relieve my stress depression after all what happened. After about 30 minutes of playing, I went home. I was not feeling that good and I don't wanna get mad that's why I slomped myself in front of the PC and surfed all the way. Then I was able to watch & download the 1st episode of Nanatsuiro Drops which made my day complete. I was excited to download it and it's a good thing Veoh has it already.

In the end, I am still happy at least I was able to recover fast than I expected. xD~ Maybe that's the power of an inspired loner! XP haha just kidding. At least, I'm getting more used to it and there are still people who are nice and understands me and that I am thankful. ^^v

7 Random Facts About Me

sentiment: just fine
harmony: "D-THREAD" by MOMO

I just got home and was surprised to see that I was tagged by my beloved vamp sibling mana'mana urumi-chan! xD Thus I will do the same. xD

Instructions:

Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about himself/herself. People who are tagged need to explain the 7 random facts/habits about themselves in their blogs. Then in turn, they need to choose 7 people to tag and list their names at the end of their blogs. The player needs to visit their sites too and inform them (say, by leaving a comment) that they have been tagged and that they need to read your (the player’s) blog to find out more about it.

Seven Random Facts About Me:

1. I so love veggies. xD If you will know how much I love veggies, that is how much I hate fruits at the same time. xD


2. I'm an I've Sound fan since early 2006. My first I've favorite singer was KOTOKO then Lia and Mami Kawada. But now, Mami Kawada is on my #1 list, 2nd is Lia (also LIA), 3rd is KOTOKO and MOMO. 4th are MELL and Ayana. 5th (but not least) is Eiko Shimamiya and Kaori Utatsuki.


3. I'm planning to enlarge my anime/jpop collection into 3,000 songs. I'm still halfway though.


4. I am meticulous when it comes to anime. I only want to watch animes that are rare or still unknown to many otakus. The reason? It's because I want to be unique and different. Once I know that anime is already "taken", okay... I won't touch it. Instead, I'll just read a review about it.


5. I have two blogs, 1 in blogger which is Radiant Tomorrow and in Tabulas which is A Perfect Sky.


6. At my age now, I still love milk and milky foods. xD I feel at ease when I drink milk. It helps stimulate my arteries & veins to keep me on going. XD~ I like coffee too but I only drink it once a day during no-school days.


7. This one is true. I hate it when it people says that I get thinner and that I should eat more so that I will get some weight. Yes I am thin and slim but it doesn't mean that I don't eat. I'm not anorexic. If you will know how "PG" I am when it comes to food, you would take your words back.

Ahh yes. I think this is enough but of course there's still more about me aside from this 7 random facts. Now for the tagging portion, I will now tag, Martin, Eunice, Rei-chan, JoCa and the others who are willing to try this out. xD~

Shining stars bless☆ single

sentiment: a bit bored
harmony: "Shining stars bless☆ (preview)" by Kaori Utatsuki

Now I'm gonna promote again wahaha! I'm doing this for the nth time. Anyways...

Shining stars bless☆ single; 1st Maxi Single
Release Date: August 1, 2007; Nanatsuiro Drops Opening Theme

Tracklisting:

1. Shining stars bless☆
2. I'm home -unplugged-
3. Shining stars bless☆ (instrumental)
4. I'm home -unplugged- (instrumental)

Now what is my impression in this single? I think it is suited and great as an opening theme for Nanatsuiro Drops since the anime is a magical girl and romance genre. I haven't heard "I'm home" but I assume it's a ballad song and she will be using her guitar strings again since it's an unpluggd version. I think I'm gonna like the single but what I don't like is that KOTOKO still made the lyrics for her songs instead of herself. I know she's still new in releasing singles but MELL and Mami Kawada were the ones who wrote the lyrics for their songs for their singles. But nonetheless, I still like the music though. I hope she will improve in her next single - that she will write her own songs since it's her maxi single not KOTOKO's. I'm not against that, but at least she will learn to write and compose her songs just like Mami Kawada and MELL did. ^^

Carpe Diem

sentiment: Reflecting (again)

harmony: "Carpe Diem" by Mami Kawada

You might be thinking that I will be dramatic again no? Well not really because I am feeling a bit perky and hyper right now so I absolutely have no time for drama. I just want to reflect on something important about our life. And it's something to do with what I am listening right now. xD~

If you must know, "Carpe Diem" according to Wikipedia is "Seize the day". Well it has something to do with what I posted earlier (When Are You Ready To Say Goodbye?) but not much drama content (I avoid and hate being a cheezy one! But if it can't be helped, then I will most likely. XD). I just realize that how much fear that I get from death, we can't avoid it right? Yes, someday, we will die too but before it arrives, I'll do my thing.

I quote Wikipedia's information:

"Eat, drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die."

I just come to a realization on how we can improve our daily life. Yes, live the day as if you will die tomorrow. That way, we will be forced be able to do things that we haven't done before. Maybe if I will do that, I will do all things in a bit rush way since I got only 24 hours right? And I will still go to school and study then do something that will entertainment like play SC2, eat at my favorite fast food chain or restaurant, surfing the net and make my last graphic art if I still have time. But of course, in reality, I can't do all these things because it's very strenuous plus I don't have cash with me. But at least, those were the things that I want to do to seize the day. XD

At present, I do this but ina different way. How? By just enjoying the day even though the sky is frowning at me and the sun is not giving me enough heat. It also applies to the people that I consider "friends" at school. It's too pain in the arse to explain why I kept including quote with friends. You (yes you! *points at the reader of this blog*), will you be happy if you will be approached by your "friends" when they just need you? And even forgot your background? There's this particular "friend" of mine that she kept asking me for the nth time from what school I came from and what what course. Where 4 good years together at our school. Maybe it's a case of short-term memory or a negligence of not asking me everyday. Oh well, can't do anything about that. But you know what, even if that's the case, I still don't care. I just live my day joyfully even if I'm alone or I'm just with one person as long as he/she understands who am I and what I feel. Besides I can live my school days without bugging my "friends" nee? I still have my real and closest friends around! And I am happy that they are always there for me. ^__^

Small yet Good Accomplishments

sentiment: happy
harmony: "Shining stars bless☆ (preview)" by Kaori Utatsuki

Today was not much a totally genki day but it went smooth so far. I was able to accomplish some small things but for me, it's a must! I mean, it's not a big deal accomplishment. It was all worth it. :D Here are those accomplishments:

• I was able to level up my account in Soul Calibur 2 Conquest Mode. My Xianghua is now a Platinum Lieutenant of Cerberus with 302 wins and 96 losses. Maybe to those who are avid players of SC2 they'll find this a piece of crap but for me, it's not a big joke because accomplishing this is very costly and even though I seldomly play, I was still able to arrive at this rank. ^^
• I was able to create some single articles of Hitomi Shimatani in Wikipedia just now.
• I already have a preview of Shining stars bless☆! Which is the opening theme for the anticipated anime Nanatsuiro Drops... xD it's a 35-second preview courtesy of Kaori Utatsuki's newly made website! If you want to listen, click play in the widget below. I must say, that she looks cute and younger in her website layout now. She's like she went through plastic surgery haha! Just kidding. :D If you want to find out if I'm kidding or not, take a look at this website. Click here.

There. It took me a lot of time to do all of this but at least it killed my boredom since no ones posting/updating in the forums lately so I concentrate on my "extracurricular activities" that is. xD~

Shining stars bles...