sentiment: a bit frustrated
harmony: "Water Me" by Bonnie Pink
I know this is going to be a rather dramatic post so to those who really don't like drama, I'd like to apologize but I'm not really in the mood to be happy right now. A lot of things happened before my last post, frustrating ones that is. Specially today, which serves as my Friday the 13th (although it's already July 14th). Another "History repeats itself" realization. I just remembered today how I was teased (with some hints of bullied) when I was in my younger teens. I got mad and cry instantly specially if it's really offensive and if it feels like I've been stabbed in my back with a knife but you won't die. Who wouldn't have been angry if you've been teased by boys right? Yes, the "gay thingy" but in the past it was more worst since kids are more bold and outspoken than adults right? But it's the same worst thing really even if it's not directly.
Earlier in my class, 2 boys (code name "x" and "y") really got into my nerve since they're really annoying even though they're saying they're just joking. Yeah, joking at least would make their day complete but they don't think before they speak. I don't if they're just papansin or just plain f**king idiots. When we were asked to form a group in our Industrial & Agricultural Marketing class, 3 students were chosen as leaders and I was one of the unlucky ones who was chosen by our professor. When she asked me who I wanted to be my groupmates, x and y suddenly butt in saying (actually they shouted and I find that annoying) that they don't want to be in my group. Ok fine right!? I didn't even have plans on taking them since they're such big idiots. Of course, being annoyed, I fought back and told them, "Who's forcing you? If you wanted to be with the other group, so be it!" I'm planning to say more but I don't want to have a fighting scenario there because grades matters first. It's a good thing, some of my close friends volunteered that they would be in my group and it was a big help really. Even though, they won't be reading this post of mine, I still want to thank them.
Then at Financial Management class, x is making some "poor" stomachache scenes pleading that he wants to defecate or something but when we got our 30-minute lunchbreak, he just pretended and said that he wanted to be hugged by me. What am I? An idiot? No way am I gonna do that. I'd rather punch him right in the face than do such idiotic acts! Then one of my close friends brought up that topic while we were eating lunch. I told them that I am really tired with their show and I really want to let them taste their own medicine but one of them said, "Just leave them be. You're not doing anything wrong to them right? I'm just wondering why they tease you..."
I fully agreed with what she said. I'm not doing anything wrong to them. They're the ones who started this junk talk show. Actually, I am just smiling or laughing when they're teasing but behind those laughs, I am really pissed off. I just wanted to remain cool behind those situations. Then it came to my senses that there's something not quite right. I have a feeling that they're planning to make me admit that I'm a homo. Probably, just by analyzing their pranks (I mean jokes). But they won't gain anything from this, I assure them. No matter what they do, I will see to it that I'll just remain silent since I know myself more than anybody else of them aside from my closest and best friends of course. Well who are they in my life right? They don't know anything about me so I just wanted to tell them to just keep their mouth shut and refrain from
teasing bullying me. We're already in the adult stage so why act childish and do such annoying deeds? It'll be a waste, mind them.
To have a glimpse of what I am feeling now, try listening to this song. I've been repeating this song while I am making this post.
|BONNIE PINK - Wate...|