So how is me?

感情: still cramming
音楽: "Shitsuren Cafe" - Maaya Sakamoto




Yes, I've been absent for 3 days (which I consider as a short hiatus) because of some things I need to take care of. Like my thesis -- although I already accept the fact that I won't be able to graduate this March because of some complicated things that the Business Management department head did and most likely, I'll be able to graduate this summer but I still haven't told my parents because I know, they'll be mad at me -- not to mention my two big sisters. But what can I do? It's not my fault -- well maybe I had some fault there but the dept. head has the biggest fault here! o_o

I'm already cramming to finish the thesis proposal so that I would be able to take the second part of thesis this summer (and hopefully graduate). I have to submit this on Thursday. D:

Plus, as the acting president of the Bedan Volunteers (an org in our school), I'm assisting our head coordinator and his secretary with the students' immersion at Calamba, Laguna (which was from Feb.15-16). Well the stupid Religious Studies/Immersion Department decided to go there 3 consecutive times from Feb.8-9, 15-16, and 22-23 so I still have to bear with it till next week. Yeah, I'll be away again for a couple of days which I find stupid because we could've just go there once from Feb.8-10 to save the students from paying a large sum of money just for the transportation. Plus of course, they'll still buy something for their foster parents.

And as for me, I didn't pay for the transpo because I'm acting as one of the organizers plus those students are sure hard to handle. D; They're like kids disguising in an adult outfit. They're so disorganize! We barely had time to get fun and we usually got headaches. |D;; But despite that, I'm still happy because I got paid! ;3 Although it's not a big amount, it's still something worth getting. XD *enough with the money* Setting aside the money, I still prioritize in helping them and it's still a great feeling to aid and assist the students although I didn't really helped that much. Haha! *bricked*

And how's my hair, you ask? It's already a month and few days since I got my semi-bald hair but it's grown a little. In another month, I'm pretty sure it'll be much longer. I remember having my hair this long -- Well it's not really that long but it's already handful for me. XD

Well actually before I had my hair in semi-bald, my hair was a bit longer than the picture above and it really became intolerable because the bangs get on my eyes especially when it's windy. D8 Plus it felt like I had a tail at my back. O_O And then this haircut came.

And then after one month and 14 days... voila!

If Yuki-chan is having his (sorry typo error I was kinda sleepy last night when I posted this) her hair cut, I'm having my hair grow and it has progressed somehow. Haha! Sorry, am not good at winking! Haha! *gets totally stomped* And I still have the nerve to smile and wink when I'm already cramming for my thesis proposal?! XD Sad to say, I'll have to go now. Till next time. XD *gets hit by a smashing pumpkin*

Meme time!! xD

感情: hungry (harahetaaa~)
音楽: "Manon" - Nana Kitade

Got this one from sixthwinemasa sixthwinemaiden. Anyone is free to steal it for their own purpose. 8D

A

- Available: yeah~ more than available! D; 
- Age: 23 
- Annoyance: Non-sense raps & R&B's (especially western ones) DX 
- Animal: Any except those who bite. :DD 

B
- Beer: I usually don't booze. XD 
- Birthday: December 20th
- Best Friend: My ONLINE FRIENDS!! XD I don't have a best friend at school. :@ 
- Best feeling in the world: when I'm with my true friends, listening to groovy music 
- Big words: WELL... XD 
- Blind or Deaf: Neither of them!
- Best weather: Sunny and Windy! I hate rainy days, it's so melancholic. Dv *epic fail* 
- Been in Love: NoPe 
- Been bitched out?: Are you asking me? XD 
- Been on stage?: Yeah. 
- Believe in yourself: sometimes, yes! XP 
- Believe in life on other planets: Well yes, even though I haven't heard about it.
- Believe in miracles: yeah
- Believe in Magic: I WANT TO BELIEVE!!! XD 
- Believe in Satan: yes 

C
- Car: none. But I want to take the White CRV here even though it's not mine!!! :DD *majorly bricked*
- Candy: NONE. DX 
- Color: RED, blue, Violet, BLACK!! 8D 
- Cried in school: Yeah but it was a long dime ago. XD 
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate. xDDD~ 
- Cake or pie: BOTH. 8D
- Countries to visit: Japan, Greece, Australia, Canada~ XD 

D
- Day or Night: night! XD
- Danced: Yeah
- Dance in the rain?: Hmm, once? But no one saw me. XP 
- Do splits?: I'd get vasectomized killed if I did that. D:

E
- Eggs: I like eggs but I'm saturated by it right now~ :| 
- Eyes: BLACK 
- Everyone has a: ball. :DD I'll spank you if you think of the malicious one! *prepares mescles* 
- Ever failed a class?: Ermm... (_ _;) 

F
- First crush: Can't remember who. Dv 
- Full name: Wilfredo Resurreccion Jr. 
- First thoughts waking up: *turns off alarm clock then goes back to sleep*
- Food: WHERE?!! >:DD 

G

- Greatest Fear: HEIGHTS!!! Damn. D:<
- Giver or taker: Both, but I'd prefer to be more of a giver. :DD
- Gum: I don't have one. D:
- Get along with your parents?: Yeah somehow.
- Good luck charm: WHAT GOOD LUCK CHARM?!! D: 

H
- Hair Color: black with some streaks of dark brown (if you look carefully! XD) 
- Height: 173cm
- Happy: 60% Happy,  30% Sad, 10% It's complicated! D:
- Holiday: Ermm what is a holiday?! :DD 
- How do you want to die: When I already finish my accomplishments w/ no regrets. 
- Health freak?: Not really. XP 
- Hate: As of now, those people who are already an adult yet acts like a brat!! D:< 

I
- Ice Cream: *drools* 
- Instrument: *headdesks continuously*

J
- Jewelry: Errm, none! D: 

K
- Kids: they can be both amusing and annoying -- at times. :DD 
- Kickboxing or karate: Kickboxing! 8D 
- Keep a journal?: *points at this blog* 

L
- Longest Car Ride: 16 hours from Magallanes, Sorsogon to Muntinlupa
- Love: RABURABU!!! Haha! XP 
- Letter: F 
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yeah, sometimes! But I also cried out of eating very hot/spicy foods! |D;;
- Love at first sight: nope. 

LAST PERSON WHO...
1. Slept in a bed beside you?: My family. We all sleep in the same room! 
2. Saw you cry?: N/A 
3. Went to the movies with you?: college buddies
4. You went to the mall with?: college buddy
5. You went to dinner with?: college buddy 
6. You talked to on the phone?: my uncle. 
7. Made you laugh?: sixthwinemasa sixthwinemaiden! 

M
- Milk flavor: ANY!! As long as its milk!!! 8DD 
- Mooned anyone?: "Mooned" wa nanda~? Dv 
- Marriage?: Not in my mind right now. XD 
- Motion sickness?: N/A
- McD's or BK?: BK!! 

N
- Number of Siblings: 2 big sisters and 1 adopted sister
- Number of Piercings: N/A 

O
- Overused Phrases: I think I know that. XDDD;
- One wish: I hope Mami Kawada will release her 8th single soon. XP 

P
- Place you'd like to live: Anywhere as long as its decent-looking. 
- Perfect Pizza: Lots of cheese, mushroom, salami, pepperoni, AND MORE VEGGIES!!! *bricked by sixthwinemaiden*
- Pepsi/Coke: Pepsi

Q
- Quail: Quail egg? WHERE?! :DD 

R
- Reason to cry: Nothing really. xD 
- Radio Station: I don't listen to the radio
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Whoa, I can't! |D;;

S
- Song: squall - Chiaki Ishikawa 
- Shoe size: 9½-10 
- Salad Dressing: Any dressing will do!! ♥♥
- Sushi: RABURABU~♥♥ 
- Scent: Hugo Boss!! 8D
- Skipped school: YEAH (just like sixthwinemaiden said, "it's an incredibly incurable hobby" XD)
- Slept outside: YEAH
- Seen a dead body?: Nope. 
- Shower Daily?: But of course!! 
- Swear: I don't like swearing especially when I know it won't happen. :| 
- Stuffed Animals?: ANY!! 
- Sports?: badminton, running, volleyball. 8D
- Single/Group dates: ANY 
- Strawberries/Blueberries: ANY
- Scientists need to invent: Time machine which lets you go back to the big mistake you had in the past. *HALLELUJAH CHANCE~~ NOOOOO~~!!!* :DD

T
- Time for bed: Usually midnight or past midnight XD
- Thunderstorms: Love it when you're at home~ cold weather then eat/drink something  to sooth the atmosphere. *PAAFEKUTO*
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: Uwahh. D:

U
- Unpredictable: Sometimes. XD 

V
- Vegetable you love: ALL 
- Vacation spot: JAPAN. Nothing else. XD

W
- Weakness: I'm too overanalyzing. XP 
- When you grow up: I'd like to accomplish something I think I can't.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: No one. XD My college buddies tried to imitate my gestures but they can't do it perfectly. XD 
- Worst feeling: Regret 
- Where do we go when we die: In heaven?! O_o 
- Worst weather: TOO COLD. I'd die of hypothermia. DX 

X
-X-Rays: I'd like to see/operate it once! 8D

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: SOPHOMORE, SOPHOMORE FIGHT~! :DD 

Z
- Zoo animal: Panda!! 8DD 
- Zodiac sign: Sagittarius (Sun), Ox (Chinese)

Acckkk! Can This Be True??!

sentiment: nervous *cold sweat*
harmony: "Marumelo" by eufonius

*gasps* Just as when I heard early in the morning television sitcom of this disease, I got curious but didn't have the time to listen and take a seat because I'll be late for my first class (Well, even if I didn't, I still came late ~\(_ _;)/~ ) And yeah even if I'm not really sure if this is really it, 70% of the statements are true according to my research just a minute ago!!! O__O;;

(Bold-style statements indicates that it happens to me lately. Information courtesy of http://www.webmd.com/ )

Dysthymia, sometimes referred to as chronic depression, is a less severe form of depression. With dysthymia, the depression symptoms can linger for a long period of time, perhaps two years or longer. Those who suffer from dysthymia are usually able to function adequately but might seem consistently unhappy.

Experts are not sure what causes dysthymia. This form of chronic depression is thought to be related to brain changes that involve serotonin, a chemical or neurotransmitter that aids your brain in coping with emotions. Major life stressors, chronic illness, medications, and relationship or work problems may also increase the chances of dysthymia.

Sign and symptoms? Take a look.

- Persistent sad or empty feeling
- Difficulty sleeping (sleeping too much or too little)
- Insomnia (early morning awakening)
- Feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness
- Feelings of guilt
- Loss of interest or the ability to enjoy oneself
- Loss of energy or fatigue
- Difficulty concentrating, thinking or making decisions
- Changes in appetite (overeating or loss of appetite)
- Observable mental and physical sluggishness
- Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
- Thoughts of death or suicide

Right... I once experienced the uninspiration and dull feeling (specifically in October which is the very reason that I was in hiatus). But right now, I'm feeling this depression and pessimism so that I'll be back into my old self again. Wish me luck guys. x__X

I really need no counselling and other related whatsoevers but I'm really in dire of great support and inspiration so that I can erase this chronic ddepression out of my whole body but I'm going to tell you it's not going to be any easy just like passing through Warp Zone 1 at the Super Mario Brothers game. D: I swear, it's much more difficult than Warp Zone 8. (_ _;) But I'm doing the best that I can to entirely wipe off this illness.

Meme available for all

sentiment: happy~
harmony: "Atashi no Machi, Ashita no Machi" by Hitomi Takahashi

Wow, I'm repeating the song for the nth time already. xD Because I really like love it. XD And speaking of meme, it's been a while since I had a meme and when I saw this on kurohawk's blog, I snatched it and decided to answer all the questions for fun. xD

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
-- NO, not now. I still enjoy being single. =D
02) What was your dream growing up?
-- At first to be a doctor but I threw that dream away in the trash can. Right now, I dream of becoming a successful businessman. xD
03) What talent do you wish you had?
-- Control one of the four elements of the world. Specifically, Earth. xD
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
-- Milk Shake ^_^
05) Favorite vegetable?
-- Almost all =D I'm a veggie lover.
06) What was the last book you read?
-- Can't remember. Does a direct sales catalogue count? =D
07) What zodiac sign are you?
-- Sagittarius
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
-- NONE!
09) Worst Habit?
-- Overexplaining and overanalyzing everything before getting to my point. The main reason others don't understand what I say.
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
-- Probably. But since I don't have my own car, will someone give me a lift?? =))
11) What is your favorite sport?
-- Volleyball and Badminton but I seldomly play sports nowadays
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
-- 65% Optimistic, 35% Pessimistic.
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
-- I dunno. =D *lol'd*
14) Worst thing ever happen to you?
-- Nah, it's too embarrassing! ~\(_ _;)/~
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
-- I'm the most addicted JPop-er of our school. No more, no less. =p
16) Do you have any pets?
-- Dogs and pests. XP *whistles*
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
-- Gahh! I'll sneak in my room and pretend that I never saw you. =p
18) What was your first impression of me?
-- I don't know. I haven't talked to you yet (to the one I got this)
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
-- cute!!! =D
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
-- I want to gain weight so that I won't be underweight forever. xD
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
-- Probably conscience.
22) What color eyes do you have?
-- Black.
23) Ever been arrested?
-- No.
24) Bottle or can soda?
-- Neither.
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
-- Earn and save it for future use.
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
-- Malls or fastfood chains.
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
-- Yeah, but I'm not afraid of them.
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
-- Spend time on my computer.
30) Do you swear a lot?
-- Not too much.
31) Biggest pet peeve?
-- novelty songs and pesky hiphop/rap songs and generic western songs. Don't like them at all. When I hear them, I get irritated immediately.
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
-- JPop
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
-- Yes.
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
-- Any dairy products and fruits, respectively.
35) Do you believe in God?
-- Yes, of course.
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
-- Well what have I been doing right now? XP

Anyone who wants to copy this meme on their journal, you are free to do so. ^_~

My Road, Tomorrow's Road

sentiment: looking at the brighter side (somehow)
harmony: "Atashi no Machi, Ashita no Machi" by Hitomi Takahashi

Even though I'm not like Hitomi Takahashi, who will move away from her town to sing this song, yet I can still relate on the song that's why I urged myself to find any good translation of the song, and I did. Credit goes to kurohawk of LJ. ^^

Before I looked into the translation, it went down to my brainstream and forced me to look at the possible positive side of my life since almost all of my life is full of pain and sorrow especially at school. It feels like I'm really the master of my own destiny.. I'm the one who makes the future for me. Well I already know this but I don't know, I let my pessimism get the best of me most of the time. Yes, I'm timid and a pessimist at times especially when no one appreciate my works and effort. And it's fine with me if someone will commit a mistake to me but when I made one, it felt like the "end of the world" for me and I apologize many times (even if it's not).

Quoting from the song:

"That's right
I'm not going to waver
I'm a bit scared, but
I'm not going to lose anymore!"

I really want to be strong for myself but yeah, I'm a bit scared sometimes. You just can't take away the nervousness most of the time even at small things. I don't know for other people but for me, yes.

"I'll throw away the things I hate about myself I just want to be true to myself I want to see all the things I haven't seen up to now"

I, uh, so wanted to do this! I want to throw away the pessimism inside myself because it doesn't give me any benefits and it lowers my self-esteem. And I so really want to be just myself, no one else but me, but I don't know other people don't see me as I want them to see me. ~\(_ _;)/~

And lastly, I will try to be a better person after every tomorrow but I can't really promise that I'll be one since it's really difficult for me. If only I could give this whole situation to those who deserve this, I could've done that for a long time.

Ryoga all the way to Marikina!

sentiment: happy
harmony: "Mata Ashita ne" by Sachi Tainaka

Today, me and my friend Issa went to Marikina to pick her clothes for her costrip in the upcoming UP Ame, a cosplay event that is celebrated annually at the University of the Philippines. Well that because she asked me to go with her and she shouldered all of my expenses on the trip! Wow, how generous of her. XD Although she won't be able to read this one, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BRICKED HYPOTHALAMUS!!! *bricked once again*


Well she's from Cavite and I'm from Muntinlupa City and we decided to meet at the Star Mall which is a bit nearer from my house (than hers). And as you can see the map above, you'll see the dashed lines there, you'll notice Marikina is at the northeastern part of National Capital Region and both our location were way down south so it's been a real long day for us but we enjoyed the trip (since it's my first time going there as well).

It's really strenuous to go to Marikina because we have to ride the bus, then at certain point, take the train, then enter a mall that will lead you to another near train station (actually it's actually far by foot! |D;;) then you'll ride a jeepney. *Whew* it's really far away and I can't really explain how I become dumbfounded at the surroundings since it's really my first time going at that city.

We departed from Star Mall at 11:30am and we managed to arrive at our destination at 2:15pm because we still had lunch and include the times we got lost at the Marikina Public Market! |D;; And so our Ryoga team has yet another member! :)) Even after we got the costume, we still had the trouble of getting out of the place. *lol'd* I guess it's already in our genes to get lost in such places. XD

I managed to arrive home at 7:00pm because there's still heavy traffic (both people and vehicular traffic, I mean! |D;;) along the way (although we started on our way on home at 4:15pm! D:). It's been a while since we were together and while on the way, we talked about a lot of things varying from anime talks to personal (and even confidential) talks and somehow, it's a good thing, we were never bored at each other. XD

And we're still going to see each other at Saturday since we're going to attend the UP Ame. =D

*Whew* I was really tired from the journey that's why after 1 hour, I got my forty winks at an instant. |D;; Well who wouldn't be able to sleep when you had only almost 4 hours of sleep and a very long and strenuous day ahead? Any insomniacs like me will be K.O'd at times like this. I hope it stays that way since I have to adjust for my schedule this second semester. I have an 8:00am class during Tuesdays and Thursdays! Oooh, the deception!! T___T

*looks at the clock* Looks like I'll have to sleep since it's already midnight. And so the very long day ends here. :DD

My Personality Type

sentiment: kinda bored
harmony: "Time heals all sorrows" by Kotoko

Got this from Urumi-chan's blog. It's been a while since I've taken an online quiz nee? I just got curious of what personality type I have. xD And what do you know, I'm an independent thinker (IT)?! Yes the explanation there are 80-90% me but I can't believe that I'm independent...

Ahh I miss Sachi Tainaka... xD Oh and speaking of her, I updated her page in Wiki since I learned that she will have her 8th single entitled Mou Kisu Sarechatta released on the 23rd of July... Oh that date... It's also the release date of Rythem's 16th and first double-A side single entitled Love Call/Akari no Arika. None of these singles has released their single covers as of now, and I'm excited to grab them... xD *can't wait*

The House

lucky for you, this isn't the horror thingy. XD I just took the personality test, The House.

Well, I followed the instruction on making the house. Too bad, I don't have a scanner but I'm going to describe my drawing.

My house is alone and a big big one in the drawing. It has no fence. With one front door and 4 small windows with a cross -- 2 in the downstairs and upstairs. My bedroom is upstairs in the left window. I had a bit curvy walkway. I have a garden with trees and flowers on the right part. I drew a picture of myself -- just a small one. And here's the result:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person.

You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. You often come up with solutions to problems. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

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Well kinda true (specially the bold statements/phrases). The last sentence struck me. XD I don't think much of myself -- my top priority is other people -- my friends on how I can help or serve them and I don't buy things for myself. I usually buy things that can be beneficial for me and my friends. And yes, I am a very shy, timid and reserved person. That I don't deny. XD

What My Style of Clothing Says

interested? click here.

What others see from your style

Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are outgoing, energetic and trendy.

What others see from your belts

You are a lonely and demanding person. You are hardworking as well as intelligent, and can be passionate when in love.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably an independent and strong-willed person. Fairness is important to you, and you always stand up for what you believe in. You are friendly and get along well with people.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

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The last analysis part really struck me. XD I really like spending my time alone with my own thoughts since I'm used to being alone especially at school. xD

A Personality Test

sentiment: intrigued
harmony: "Broken hearts, citylights and me just thinking out loud" by BONNIE PINK

I was curious of my very own results so I tried this too. xD Got this from Cattleya-chan and Urumi-chan's blog.

Interested too? Click here.

Highlight time. Statements in bold signifies that it's 90-100% correct about me.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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Oh wow... I had many true answers!! XD Although I don't know if I am really down-to-earth or not! You judge! XP The last question is very true! Yes, I am almost of the time genki but my mood swings sometimes get the best of me. -__- And yes, I am afraid of rejections and miserable failures. o_o I don't know why.