New layout and more sentiments

感情: a little bored
音楽: "La Fiesta" - Hitomi Shimatani




Yes, despite the boring day, I'm trying to amuse myself and is already in front of the PC for 8 friggin' hours. D: And don't be surprised if I'm even a little hungry~~ XD

And so I made myself a new blog layout with its usual simplicity -- well that's because I don't want too decorative and too much "brushy" pics so I kept it simple and clean. *sings Utada's Simple and Clean then gets bricked*

And now I'm presenting the fifth scenario which is My Fairytale and it features Kalafina, one of my favorite all-girl group singers! I made use of their picture in their single fairytale which is the 6th ending theme for the OVA Kara no Kyoukai. I did not used the Seventh Heaven album cover because I already used that in their fanlisting. XP

Speaking of fanlisting, I still haven't upped it because I can't log into my FTP. I wonder if the server move is already finished or whatsoever. And that's actually the reason why I haven't upped the Kalafina fanlisting. And I've been e-mailing Mizuiro-chan but she's not replying -- probably busy with school work.

And I still haven't finished the layout for Jyukai fanlisting and summer classes will already start next week. I should finish it quick so that I can upload it w/ no worries even if I'm doing my thesis this summer. And admittedly, that's the reason why I made a new blog layout because I know I won't be having time to create one when summer classes is going on because I have to concentrate on my thesis so that I could finish up tertiary education this May. I want to benkyo (Japanese term for "work") already. xP

OoOoh~ my eyes are hurting and my stomach's churning. x0 So till then, I'll be posting after a few days. xD

P.S.: Eiko Shimamiya's single Chikai did not leaked. D: I want the long version already! *grumbles*

One of your ordinary RL's

感情: nostalgic
音楽: "Doko ni mo nai Michi" - Eiko Shimamiya




Wow it has been a while since I posted something RL and serious but anyhow, I'll continue. xD

Two days ago (it's already Saturday in our timeline), I had a battle on my mind if I will come up for my mock defense or boycott it since I'm too lazy to present my thesis. Plus, our office will be closed at 11am because our Bedan Volunteer coordinator will be out till nth hours and won't be back until tomorrow -- so in short, I don't have a place to go or stay that's why don't ask if what is my decision about the mind battle.

Plus, Joie-chan's like tempting me to go to Manila so that's why I decided to go there and see them. And I'm very longing to see them because I haven't seen them for months! o.O I haven't been using my cellphone lately so I haven't communicated with them for awhile also. So I texted her that I will go to her place and have fun since I'm also depressed with the turn of events at school. And the fact that staying there will be more torture for me. It felt sad so I decided to free myself from this sadness even for just a while, right? (Although, I'm somewhat sorry for what I did for the mock defense. -_-a)

Natsumi-chan was also with us although Hangman and Mana-chan weren't able to come but we took our time to enjoy the moment. I missed that moment where I am truly with my closest and greatest friends around (as you know, I don't have a REAL friend at school -- I mean somewhat in-lined with my interests, behavior etc.) just talking, laughing, sharing each others' stories about what happened lately, plus I already told them my problem at school. It was a short day for us but we still enjoyed it! We walked around, eat @ (the nearby) KFC, trip trip's, plus we went to Tronix and the nearby Neoprint-like studio wherein we took pictures. And good thing, I was able to scan the pictures awhile ago at our office. xD And here are some of our pics from two days ago. ^_^ Haha there is a "halloween special" pic from one of the mini-pic stickers but sadly I don't have it. xD Lucky you, kapatid Joie-chan! xP

Ah yes, although my music is mediocre it still fits the occasion! XD One of my favorite Maiko Iuchi songs performed by Shimamiya-sensei. :D

Going back, I really missed the times when we're together. Especially now, I already miss them especially the ones whom I weren't able to see but good thing, it'll be Joie-chan's birthday celebration next week and we'll be able to see each other again -- the complete edition. XD

I'm free again~

感情: a bit tired
音楽: "CAVE" - KOTOKO




Ah yes~ after cramming for thesis, I'm feeling lighter again because I can do my unfinished tasks -- I'm currently searching an idea inside my mind what will be the name, pics to be used and design for the upcoming fanlistings -- 1 adopting (Jyukai) and 1 new (Kalafina).

I just finished making up the List of To Aru Majutsu no Index albums in Wiki and boy, it was a real hard work!! O.o although I just copied the format from Shakugan no Shana, it was still a bit handful.

My homeworks (take note, HOMEWORKS! Not just one! XP) for Business Policy & Strategic Management, I still haven't started finished it!! D: I still have to do another version for my other classmate because he asked me to do it for him --- because he'll pay me for doing it. XP Don't be mistaken because I won't be accepting that offer if not for the money! Nyahaha! *stomped then bricked* There's nothing free in this world today!!! >:) *pie splat*

Plus, I will still sort out my things for the 3rd & last immersion assisting job in Calamba, Laguna this coming Sunday, so I'll be leaving this beloved blog of mine for a while. Uguuu~ I'm going to face those hard-headed students again but it'll be the last time so I'm tolerating this.

*Looks at my watch then yawns* Oh it's already 12:15am in my watch, maybe I'll be sleeping for now. I'm not that tired but I'm feeling sleepy already.

So how is me?

感情: still cramming
音楽: "Shitsuren Cafe" - Maaya Sakamoto




Yes, I've been absent for 3 days (which I consider as a short hiatus) because of some things I need to take care of. Like my thesis -- although I already accept the fact that I won't be able to graduate this March because of some complicated things that the Business Management department head did and most likely, I'll be able to graduate this summer but I still haven't told my parents because I know, they'll be mad at me -- not to mention my two big sisters. But what can I do? It's not my fault -- well maybe I had some fault there but the dept. head has the biggest fault here! o_o

I'm already cramming to finish the thesis proposal so that I would be able to take the second part of thesis this summer (and hopefully graduate). I have to submit this on Thursday. D:

Plus, as the acting president of the Bedan Volunteers (an org in our school), I'm assisting our head coordinator and his secretary with the students' immersion at Calamba, Laguna (which was from Feb.15-16). Well the stupid Religious Studies/Immersion Department decided to go there 3 consecutive times from Feb.8-9, 15-16, and 22-23 so I still have to bear with it till next week. Yeah, I'll be away again for a couple of days which I find stupid because we could've just go there once from Feb.8-10 to save the students from paying a large sum of money just for the transportation. Plus of course, they'll still buy something for their foster parents.

And as for me, I didn't pay for the transpo because I'm acting as one of the organizers plus those students are sure hard to handle. D; They're like kids disguising in an adult outfit. They're so disorganize! We barely had time to get fun and we usually got headaches. |D;; But despite that, I'm still happy because I got paid! ;3 Although it's not a big amount, it's still something worth getting. XD *enough with the money* Setting aside the money, I still prioritize in helping them and it's still a great feeling to aid and assist the students although I didn't really helped that much. Haha! *bricked*

And how's my hair, you ask? It's already a month and few days since I got my semi-bald hair but it's grown a little. In another month, I'm pretty sure it'll be much longer. I remember having my hair this long -- Well it's not really that long but it's already handful for me. XD

Well actually before I had my hair in semi-bald, my hair was a bit longer than the picture above and it really became intolerable because the bangs get on my eyes especially when it's windy. D8 Plus it felt like I had a tail at my back. O_O And then this haircut came.

And then after one month and 14 days... voila!

If Yuki-chan is having his (sorry typo error I was kinda sleepy last night when I posted this) her hair cut, I'm having my hair grow and it has progressed somehow. Haha! Sorry, am not good at winking! Haha! *gets totally stomped* And I still have the nerve to smile and wink when I'm already cramming for my thesis proposal?! XD Sad to say, I'll have to go now. Till next time. XD *gets hit by a smashing pumpkin*

Haven't been posting that much

感情: feeling unproductive
音楽: "Saigo no Kajitsu" - Maaya Sakamoto

Ever wondered why I was posting less than usual again? Well like everyone in this real world (even the ones I know here in cyber world) are like, busy with their own lives. Yes, I'm still a hopefully-to-graduate student since I'm very unproductive of my works (because of some school issues) but I really really want to graduate this coming March so that I could at least help our lack of financial resources here in the house (Hehe, but I can't really promise that after grad because it's really hard to look for a decent job nowadays!).

Right now, I'm busy with school works -- including my thesis, volunteer works, future plans and of course, half-busy with J-pop, anime and other stuffs. 

I don't really know how will I ever resolve this "unproductiveness" but I'm giving my best shot so that I could meet my requirements although I have to admit, it's real hard. In the following days/weeks, I'll be assisting (as a Bedan Volunteer) my fellow students in their immersion somewhere in the Laguna province and I'll be away for a few days (but it's still on Feb.9).

And right now, despite the unproductiveness I'm feeling, I'm still posting and thinking for the Chapter 7 of my thesis which are the Proposed Strategies  for my topic. And thinking about what will I include in the Action Plan and Timetable, it gives me the headaches because they're a bit handful. And for me, it's the hard part of being solo -- but oh well, rather than having a partner who is not reliable after all.

Oh well, gotta finish these stuffs first -- but I'll still be posting in the next few days... I'm still capable of doing that haha! But if not, I'll declare a hiatus for the meantime. ^^

WHAT FRUSTRATION!

sentiment: frustrated
harmony: "Two face" by AKI

Well it has been a while since I wrote an RL stuff here, eh? But today's one of the freakiest day I've ever had at school and I can't let the day pass having these frustrations inside my hypothalamus, ne? And while I share how much of an exhausting day it was, I would like to describe how I felt awhile ago at the Bilibid prisons.

Ugh, almost pure epic fail! Well I was happy somehow but today instead of enjoying myself being a volunteer (since I've been there for the nth time), I, Ms. Glen and Sir Bong got ourselves at the end of our nerves because of the students of the immersion class. >_<

First off, the SOP was to meet at 7am and yet only less than 1/10 of the population (of the immersion class) has arrived. Gawd damn for Filipino time. o__O Never fails to make me puke out and be ashamed of being a Filipino (sometimes). And that's not the only problem, other students made their transportation payment (for the jeepneys) TODAY! I remembered we posted that Dec.11 was the last date of payment for the transpo! *makes me want to bite them in the leg like Index* And so they made us crammed to accept all the payments instead of just preparing the necessary things since we're just a three-man org today (because the other volunteers weren't able to make it and some of the volunteers are also students of the immersion class so that leaves us no choice).

And because of some interruptions, misbehaviors and conflicts from parents of some student (it's too long and complicated to explain one by one), we were able to went out on our way to the prisons at 9am. o__o

When we arrived there, I was assigned to collect the IDs of ALL the students and mind you, there were at least 200 students and I have to carry and collect them all!! X_X We didn't have a plastic bag so I have to carry the burden. Then when the students entered, we still waited for the last batch of students (and it was so fuckin' hot that time!!).

While inside the prisons, I helped with the documentations like taking pictures, roaming around, unintentionally playing hide and seek with Sir Bong and Ms. Glen (because when I'm searching for them, they go somewhere but this isn't a problem really, it's just a bit exhausting to searching for them). Yes, definitely it was fun staying there seeing the other people and the inmates having fun and all but those immersion students are making the easy work a hard work for us, really.

One of the worst statements that I heard from one of the students while I was roaming around is that they are wondering why the immersion was SO short and unsatisfying. YEAH DAMN FUCKIN' whoever you are, it's all yer damn fault that it ended up like that --- gawd for not being punctual and not paying on time! Grrrr!!

And what's worse, we just found out that some of the students didn't forgot to pay the transpo and Sir Bong didn't have a choice but to be the loan shark of the school and paid the shortage which made him hotheaded when we returned at school. Well the other 3 professors didn't even bug to help us and shoulder the money shortage. Ugh, school surely sucks. ~~

When will people learn to change? Speaking of change, I admit I arrived a bit later than 7am today but at least I've done my part and I was earlier than most of the students. I remembering telling my younger sister that change starts within us so the first step to do "the change" is to be a role model (but sadly I was *kinda* not because of the almost 10 minute late) and show them that you really aim to that change.

I remember Sir Bong also mentioned that on his lecture before we departed at the Bilibid Prison. And I so agree with him that I really want to make them realize it.

And in the end, I feel toxicated because of what happened... Although it's slowly suppressing, I still don't feel like being happy. >>; Or maybe I'm just tired and all and so, I'm going to rest and relax my head. Hopefully, I'll be back to my old self again tomorrow.

Very Boring for a First Day of Class

If I thought that my other first class experiences are kinda devastated but today was the very worst one. I only have two subjects for today which is only from 8:00am-9:30am and 1:30pm-3:00pm. Imagine the gap! It's 4 hours straight and what's worse is that I don't have anyone to talk to even to go to! D: DD:

I just spent the first two hours sitting on a bench near our cafeteria and daydreamed of raining real hard! And what do you know? It happened just after my last class! And I came home soaking wet together with the almost pulpy plastic bag containing some few school supplies. D: And I know I already ate my pride of eating alone in the cafeteria but who won't get intimidated if you're the only one in the cafeteria utopia who was eating by yourself? And others are looking at you like you're some kind of weirdo and whatsoever glaring they're making. I really so wanted to twitch those eyes with my fork at that time!

Arrgghh, I just wanted to let this out because no one's hearing me out lately and it's not healthy to keep it to yourself, right? My school days are just getting fucked up day by day.

A Pre-winter Menstrual-like Syndrome

sentiment: somehow cooling down
harmony: "portamento" by Mami Kawada

Oh yeah, it has been a very long LONG day for a school enrollment and what did I benefit from it? Nothing, really. D: I almost got myself a heat stroke from the extreme hot weather, I wasn't able to pay my tuition fee because of the over long line in the Departmental Office (they couldn't get any shitty with the enrollment system. DD: I spend the whole time standing in front of the DO just to get that dipshit subjects and assessment form), and looks like my very own effort to keep in touch (with other people) was not very much appreciated, and like whatever, Fred you're such a loser. |D;; It's a bit long story -- I just didn't waste my effort --- my time, and my money! o__O;;

Really I've had enough one day of ranting these adversities. OoOoh how I wish I could just dissolve myself and get the hell outta here. I'm sick of this, really but what's worse, I can't express what I felt at that time (to those people) because my tongue and conscious won't really let me but the inner DEVIL side really wants to release its trident and kill those people. They just fucked off my day. =c

And just when I arrived at home, I was able to shout at dearest Eunice who will celebrate her birthday today. Ah imouto-chan, gomen ne. I wasn't able to pull back my tongue because of this madness. |D;; It felt like I had a PMS. =O And I was able to answer my oka-san with a bit rudeness because of this. Gyaah~ *headdesks* Hontou ni gomen nasai, minna-san!! T~T My day's just very fucking ugly and wasted.

But right now, I cooled down a bit somehow. I hope I won't feel the same when I wake up later to pay for that shitty tuition fee. ~_~ *feels ashamed*

Bitter... and Sweet

sentiment: pulped out
harmony: "We Survive" by Kotoko

*whew* At last, the day was already finished!!! I can't take this day already... I'm disgusted, frustrated, tired and all!! =__= What a day!! We didn't even have class (for goodness sake). Yes, the professor is there but all we did is just surfing the net and absolutely nothing because they're installing some programs for the future lessons... And it scoped all 3 hours! Which is a waste, really. Plus, the computer laboratory was so friggin' cold. I swear I could already have a taste of Tundra for about 3/4 of the period! Two big air conditioner and it was both set into 15 degrees! WTF!! I could still withstand hot weather but not cold weather/temperature! o__O

Plus there was this idiotic freak student who was rapping by himself which really activated my loath for hip-hop & raps!! At first it was still tolerable because it was still minimal... Not until he went to my neighbor PC and searched for the lyrics of the song his listening!! AAARRRRGGHHHHH!!! I swear I could punched that guy because I really hate rap!! What's worse, I didn't have my mp3 player for defense mechanism purpose!!! DD: I swear if you're in my shoes awhile ago you could swing your axe and behead that guy!!! UUUGGHHH!!! I hate him!

After that, we just went to the mall and did some usual "confessions" since we have other companions and blah blah... And as usual, I could almost puked out as they smoke their cigarettes... Eww... I should take care of my lungs or I'll die before they do... -___- And the biggest mistake that I did for today! I went with them for road tripping --- to Mall of Asia which up to now, I don't know why I went with them... I just ended up real exhausted...

All bitterness in the world also have little sweetness... So what is this sweetness? Just after they drop me off, I rode a jeepney to reach Soldiers' Hills, my home village. I paid (exactly) PhP8.00 for the jeepney fare but you know what happened? Since they didn't know I'm from Soldiers' Hills, they decided to return the PhP8.00 that I paid because they will already go home and they won't be able to drop me off my destination. I didn't have the effort to speak up because we're already in front of SH!! XDD So like, I got a free ride to my village... =P It got me laughing when I reached the tricycle terminal... =D What a blessing in disguise... XDD

And now, I end the bitter... yet a little sweet story of July 5, 2008. =D

The Diligent Student (?)

sentiment: wakaranai~
harmony: "Taishou.a" by anNina

Ara~ you must be wondering about the title, right? If you must know, I really am the most diligent school of San Beda College Alabang this first semester. Know why? I only have 6 units this semester which is only equivalent to two subjects (with 3 units per subject). My schedule? It's easy as this:

WF (01:30-03:00) Peace Studies & Human Rights
S (8:00-11:00) Internet and Web Applications

Ugh, I kinda hate this but what can I do? I don't want to take a leave because it'll just ruin my crossplaying plans. x__x And besides I still have to deal with my thesis although it's not included up there. I have to finish it so that I could graduate this March of 2009. I'm still nervous about the coming defense because I'll be doing it by myself... *hugs self* How I wish there would be an angel somewhere who can come with me in the defense proper. o_o *as if*