Pretty Out of the Unordinary

Feeling: Not that comfortable/thrilled

Currently Listening To: "Jewel of Kiss" by Hitomi Shimatani

Today was not that exciting day. It's a bit boring and too ordinary. You know, when you got fed up of doing the same routines everyday and you keep on sulking. XD Well, whatever... But even though that is the case, I still did something worth the time like posting in the Crossholism RP (finally my first post! XD) and in my Season's Call RP in the gaiden. I was kinda excited for this two RPs.. XD My problem is that I want to post in the Anarchy Academy too but I can't think of any good situations to brought up in post. Gomen ne, Nikki-imouto... x_X

Not just that, I am so problematic of what will happen to me the next few days. I still haven't got any place to work for my OJT. x_X And the worst of all, I haven't submitted my otehr requirements at our Departmental Office. Demmet! How lazy could I get from this? I won't get any results from being a lazy bum! I felt like I was the worst bum that has ever been created because of my laziness... =_= Well, it's not because I don't want to work... But I just like to rest for a while because I was still a little tired of something about the school. I wanna break away from school for a while. Yeah, I kinda disliked being at school these days because I hate my life there! I wish I could just go away from that miserable life. It's not my type of haven... specially some of the people there are kinda insensitive and just plain damn. I wanna kick those people's arse so hard they'll kiss the moons! Hrmph! Specially those backstabbers who have something against when I don't know what I did wrong to them. Bizaare eh? They're just plain damn, I'm telling you...

Let's just change the topic for heck's sake. -_- I was able to download two singles of Hitomi-san today and I am beginning to love and savor her singles every single day. xD I was able to download the "Kaihouku" single which was released way back year 2000 and the "Jewel of Kiss" single which made my day a bit delighted because of it's soothing melody. Hitomi Shimatani = WINNER! XD hehehe! Like what I said in my previous post, even if I am the only Hitomi Shimatani fan here in the Philippines, I'd be glad to wave her banner! Go Hitomi-san! XD yay!

A Tragic Imagination

Feeling: Tragic

Currently Listening To: "Osaka no Onna" by Hitomi Shimatani

Just now, I got curious and tried listening to Hitomi Shimatani's debut single "Osaka no Onna" which, at first, I was afraid to try. Why? It's because according to the reviews and critiques from my sources, they said it sold poorly and thus marking the beginning and the end of Hitomi-san's enka career. So in my mind, I thought that the song was a bit awful so I didn't tried until now. But now, that I'm listening to it, I kinda liked it since I'm more on the pop and ballad songs. And according to my sources, the song was like from the 60's. Yeah, I kinda admit but Hitomi-san's voice quality is so vibrant here that I didn't care if it was like from the 60's. And IMO, it was not all enka unlike the Gokusen's ending theme "Onore Michi". For me, Osaka no Onna was way better than Onore Michi and it has strong expression on me that it got me half-emo. XD oh well... I just like the taste of the song. It was like the ones that I will hear in the night bars who are full of emo and drunk people. XD

I have to admit that I felt the tragic and loneliness of this song. According to one of my sources, the lyrics focus on the sad irrecoverable destiny of her (the lyricist's love) desertion by her lover. The woman feels resignation towards her destiny and tries in vain to forget her past memories with her lover. When I read about it, something popped into my mind like, "are all enka songs full of tragic stories/experience?" From what I recently noticed from all these kind of songs, they are always in a sad mood and mostly caters to older audience. They also have this impact that will punch right at your heart and made you sad just by hearing the sound. It hitted me right on the spot. x_x Oh well, that is my first expectation before listening to Osaka no Onna. Not bad for an enka song because not all enka that I heard in the past hit me like this. XD It has a good reflection that I should listen to these kinds of songs once in a while to feel the taste of bitter past.

As expected of Hitomi-san, this single of hers is definitely one of those I will listen whenever I want to look back at the 60's. XD lol~ The single's not that bad although it sold poorly, the important is, it is recognized and it even received critical acclaim and won some awards like it got the top spot at the Oricon Enka Charts although this was Hitomi-san's debut single. But now, I'd like her even more although she is not an enka singer. XD Reach to the top, Hitomi-san! XD Even if I am the only Hitomi Shimatani fan here in the Philippines, I would be glad if I were to wave a banner in front of EDSA? lol~ Anyways, I'm a big & loyal Hitomi Shimatani fan forever and ever and ever... AMEN!

It's Almost Over

Feeling: Exhausted and Hot

Currently Listening To: "Ramblin'" by Hitomi Shimatani

*whew* it's been a while since I last posted here in my blog... XD I've been busy for four friggin days because of my finals examination week. x__X But thank God, it's almost over... I have only one exam left tomorrow and that is Product & Brand Management. I don't feel like studying right now because I know that most part of the test there are analysis and application. So what is there to study? XD Hahaha! I'm not that confident that I will do well tomorrow but of course, I'll try my best.^__^ I may not be the best student in our class but my brain has full of ideas that will help me pass this exam.

Back at school, I felt like I was a living zombie roaming around the school campus because I didn't get any sleep last night because I have to finish my business proposal for my technical writing class. Sheesh! X_X It took me all night just to finish that damn paper but at least I'm done with it. I just want to rant right now and throw all of my frustrations at school. Speaking of throwing all of my frustrations, I was able to play Soul Calibur 2 after my second exam at Alabang Town Center. I missed Xiang Hua!! XD I was able to won the conquest and played Survival Mode using Talim but I just wiped out 11 enemies... Not really that bad but I could've done better if I had chosen Xiang Hua... XD haha!

Ahh yes... I was able to finish my new layout and here it is! I'm in purple mode today. XD Don't be mistaken with my layout... I'm not a big shoujo-ai fan. I just find this picture cute and neat that it got into my plans for making a new layout for my blog. Coincidentally, this also serves as a tribute for the shounen/shoujo-ai RP "Crossholism" that I recently joined in Vindicta.^^ I haven't posted in the RP yet but I'm excited to be in the story. Yeah! Hot-blooded RP'er comes again! XD

Well then, I'm already tired and sleepy... I could sleep for a thousand years! LOL~

"Permit" by MELL

In this globe were we living,
There is only one place were I can free my soul.
Just like a trip into our memory,
his expression lead me through

When it's hurt so much... live like I used to live and when my life
seems so left behind a luck.

Staring it hard like watching a sketch and hold the flame tight
until I feel it through my arm to my deep soul.
Falling in the ground without ever blooming in a huge dark city
You tried to grant me a dream with a pity light.

Once I fell in love with a why man
He said he reads my dream with a kiss, a sweet wind blew in.
I put my lips trying to feel inside of me
But I couldn't get where he is taking me.

When it's hurt so much... is it something that will prove my life?
There is nothing last for good.

Don't touch my heart in a night like this even a word gathers rust
Don't forgive me for what I've done knowing it was wrong.
You take everything in your silent eye and it stab through my heart
Your sympathy that's the only what I am asking for.

Almighty Lord, please be with me
And, skin inside of you, before my heart tumble down.

A tower of crime it's necessary evil for survival
Like a million of star in the sky illuminate in my eye

If my pure words were veiled in the vicious dark sky
I need your forgiveness to embrace my whole broken heart
Generously, I trash my body and devote my pray for
Someday, it will come to heal and will disappear

And I beg for love...
To always be around us...

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