sentiment: Reflecting (again)
harmony: "Carpe Diem" by Mami Kawada
You might be thinking that I will be dramatic again no? Well not really because I am feeling a bit perky and hyper right now so I absolutely have no time for drama. I just want to reflect on something important about our life. And it's something to do with what I am listening right now. xD~
If you must know, "Carpe Diem" according to Wikipedia is "Seize the day". Well it has something to do with what I posted earlier (When Are You Ready To Say Goodbye?) but not much drama content (I avoid and hate being a cheezy one! But if it can't be helped, then I will most likely. XD). I just realize that how much fear that I get from death, we can't avoid it right? Yes, someday, we will die too but before it arrives, I'll do my thing.
I quote Wikipedia's information:
"Eat, drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die."
I just come to a realization on how we can improve our daily life. Yes, live the day as if you will die tomorrow. That way, we will be forced be able to do things that we haven't done before. Maybe if I will do that, I will do all things in a bit rush way since I got only 24 hours right? And I will still go to school and study then do something that will entertainment like play SC2, eat at my favorite fast food chain or restaurant, surfing the net and make my last graphic art if I still have time. But of course, in reality, I can't do all these things because it's very strenuous plus I don't have cash with me. But at least, those were the things that I want to do to seize the day. XD
At present, I do this but ina different way. How? By just enjoying the day even though the sky is frowning at me and the sun is not giving me enough heat. It also applies to the people that I consider "friends" at school. It's too pain in the arse to explain why I kept including quote with friends. You (yes you! *points at the reader of this blog*), will you be happy if you will be approached by your "friends" when they just need you? And even forgot your background? There's this particular "friend" of mine that she kept asking me for the nth time from what school I came from and what what course. Where 4 good years together at our school. Maybe it's a case of short-term memory or a negligence of not asking me everyday. Oh well, can't do anything about that. But you know what, even if that's the case, I still don't care. I just live my day joyfully even if I'm alone or I'm just with one person as long as he/she understands who am I and what I feel. Besides I can live my school days without bugging my "friends" nee? I still have my real and closest friends around! And I am happy that they are always there for me. ^__^
Carpe Diem is actually one of my favorite quotes~ /gweh
ReplyDeleteI like the way you look at things, oni. Tis a good example of viewing a slightly disliked day with a different perspective... I should have done that earlier. Wahaha!
thanks imouto! It just came into my mind that no matter what I do, that is what happening in my school life. And it came to me that they're not the ones whom I will be friends forever, and they're not the ones who will help me when I'm in distress. And lastly, it came into me that I can live my ordinary school life w/o bugging or approaching them while at school. I'm not being rebellious but that's how I see it. I don't need friends that will be like a ghost. I'd rather be alone than be with those people.
ReplyDeleteYeah, even if the day is not a so-so sweet day, I still stand-up and prove to them that I can still exist and stand up on my own. I yam what I yam! xD haha! But I'm thankful that they're doing this to me so that I came into this realization that I can be more stronger. ^^ So I just live my day as if I'm going to die after the day so I can be more productive the way I used to be. ^^;