Feeling: Down (feeling condolent)
Currently Listening To: "Vestige" by T.M. Revolution
Today was definitely not a very good day. Many things happened in just one glance like someone already left without you noticing it at all. It was kinda bizarre for me to tell this but it's really disappointing that those person whom you expect to last will be gone in just a *snap*. It's not that we're not friends at all, but because they already left our haven. It's like cutting the thin threads that are connecting us with the scissors. Well, we're still going to have communications but you know, there will be some kind of barriers which will keep you from keeping in touch with them. It's still sad because I have to question/ask myself "why do they have to quit at a time like this?" I know I'm just stressing out myself because it's not going to be answered unless I ask them. But because I know it's a bit personal, I know they will kind of reluctant to tell me the real reason behind their actions. But I hope that there will be a time that they will tell me the reason behind it because my heart will be bugged if the questions within myself would not be answered.
There is a saying that, "There is no permanent in this world...." and "Expect the unexpected..." I know this is very true and is happening in reality but you know, it still hurts because they have become a part of your life then suddenly their going to fade away and part ways. Kuyashii ne!!? Although I'm not really that close to them (I wasn't able to chat with them during EB's, text with them, YM with them), but still, it hurts when I learned that they were going to leave our clan. It was like waking up from a worst nightmare! (I didn't expect my current theme will be associated with my feelings and what's happening right now) And it's like a part of me was torn apart because the reality can't change the fact that they were my friends and became a part of my humble and simple life. I know I can move on easily but the wound of being hurt is still inside me and whenever I think of it, I want to just sit down, do nothing and just keep quiet all by yourself.
Reality check: I've moved on... but I'm still kind of lonely. I accepted the fact that they left us but I'm still being torned apart. I have to continue with my life and move on as if nothing happened or else it will pull me down to the deepest sorrow I might experience. Lei and Nicole, wherever you are right now, if you are reading this post of mine, I'm still your friend and no one can change that even if reality opposes it. ^__^ I hope there will be no barriers that will be built to separate our small yet memorable friendship. ^__^ Take care, my friends!
I already said what I wanted to say and I can rest now... That's it for drama.