Mami Kawada again for To Aru!

sentiment: THRILLED, HAPPY, EXCITED AS IN EVER!!!! =D *glomps*
harmony: "Light colors" by Lia

Got this info from hikaru of aibublog, Mami Kawada does it again for her tie-in with To Aru Majutsu no Index. Recently released 1st opening theme PSI-missing, the 2nd opening theme still has no title but it is set to be released on January 28, 2009! It's catalog number would be GNCV-0013. Wow what great news! =D I think by end of December we'll already have the TV size for the 2nd OP for the said anime, ya think? =D *jumps for joy* Wonderful.

And speaking of her, PSI-missing is still continuing to chart in the Oricon weekly charts:

1st week -- #14 (9,623) 9,623
2nd week -- #39 (2,927) 12,550
3rd week -- #61 (1,667) 14,217
4th week -- #?? (1,231) 15,448

I hope this single will reach 20,000 copies, no?

Plus her MAMI KAWADA LIVE TOUR 2008 "SAVIA" LIVE&LIFE VOL.2 DVD will be out a day before Christmas. How I wish I could avail that DVD which will serve as a Christmas gift for me. But seeing my pocket, I could just put a tantrum and cry because I'm broke. >_<

An Ear Problem finally resolved

sentiment: quite happy
harmony: "cross up" by KOTOKO

Yay! xD After one week of not posting, here I go again! *lurks on my blog* ahaha!

Just these past few days, I have been a half-deaf because of my ears -- it's ringing and it's like it has stocked many ear wax on my behalf. x_X I had difficulty conversing with one people to another because I could barely understand but thankfully, it all ended today! Because this morning, I went to the doctor and got my ear "cleaned up" and guess what? It really has several *toooot~* (Sorry for those who are sensitive). You might think I neglect on cleaning my ears -- not really. I often clean it with cotton buds -- but that is the problem. My big sis used to say in the post to avoid using cotton buds because it pushes your ear waxes further in the inner part of your ears *and I didn't listen to her and this is the consequence*

*Erases that routine* I'll improvise my ear cleaning method from now on. *glomps*

KOROSU~! 斬～KILL～

sentiment: killed (?) *uwaah!*
harmony: "KILL" by MELL

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I have to admit, these songs really gave me a hard time a long time ago and it's really hard to explain on how did I got these songs... First, I looked for the PV (but not really successful) but instead I found a "video" with a static picture of KILL's single cover but the two songs are already there. I ripped "On my own" because KILL gave me a hard time on the fading out part so I just ripped the one in the barks TV and managed to watch the full PV as well.

Well, I have to *ehem* admit that my perspective about the song changed a bit when I heard the full version because I was disappointed when I heard the preview. It lacks the power to kill. XD I mean it's like, watching a bloody horror anime and yet, you were not satisfied because it needs more blood. XD

Well, I'm liking it somehow but "On my own" is kinda bland, if you ask me. I know I like "The first finale in me" but can Tomoyuki Nakazawa stop composing ballads for MELL? I'm already sick of it. (_ _;) Can you make it more powerful and rock ballad for us? It's boring you know! Not to mention, "The first finale in me" and "On my own" shares the same length. *ouch* They're like the shitty twins. -___-

I'm going to make a review after a week when I already know the first-week sales and it's peak position in the Oricon weekly since it's already my protocol ever since this 2008. And speaking of Oricon, "KILL" only managed to garner the #16 today at the daily charts. Rather low, no? PSI-missing was more of a strong.

And lastly, speaking of PSI-missing, it's still in the top 50+ charts...

1st week - #14 - 9,623 copies sold
2nd week - #39 - 2,927 copies sold

2 weeks sales = 12,550 copies

I don't know it's position in the Oricon weekly this week but according to my sources, PSI-missing is still lurking in the #45 position so probably, it'll be still in the #50+ or #60+ this week. Be strong, PSI-missing!! >,<

Acckkk! Can This Be True??!

sentiment: nervous *cold sweat*
harmony: "Marumelo" by eufonius

*gasps* Just as when I heard early in the morning television sitcom of this disease, I got curious but didn't have the time to listen and take a seat because I'll be late for my first class (Well, even if I didn't, I still came late ~\(_ _;)/~ ) And yeah even if I'm not really sure if this is really it, 70% of the statements are true according to my research just a minute ago!!! O__O;;

(Bold-style statements indicates that it happens to me lately. Information courtesy of http://www.webmd.com/ )

Dysthymia, sometimes referred to as chronic depression, is a less severe form of depression. With dysthymia, the depression symptoms can linger for a long period of time, perhaps two years or longer. Those who suffer from dysthymia are usually able to function adequately but might seem consistently unhappy.

Experts are not sure what causes dysthymia. This form of chronic depression is thought to be related to brain changes that involve serotonin, a chemical or neurotransmitter that aids your brain in coping with emotions. Major life stressors, chronic illness, medications, and relationship or work problems may also increase the chances of dysthymia.

Sign and symptoms? Take a look.

- Persistent sad or empty feeling
- Difficulty sleeping (sleeping too much or too little)
- Insomnia (early morning awakening)
- Feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness
- Feelings of guilt
- Loss of interest or the ability to enjoy oneself
- Loss of energy or fatigue
- Difficulty concentrating, thinking or making decisions
- Changes in appetite (overeating or loss of appetite)
- Observable mental and physical sluggishness
- Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
- Thoughts of death or suicide

Right... I once experienced the uninspiration and dull feeling (specifically in October which is the very reason that I was in hiatus). But right now, I'm feeling this depression and pessimism so that I'll be back into my old self again. Wish me luck guys. x__X

I really need no counselling and other related whatsoevers but I'm really in dire of great support and inspiration so that I can erase this chronic ddepression out of my whole body but I'm going to tell you it's not going to be any easy just like passing through Warp Zone 1 at the Super Mario Brothers game. D: I swear, it's much more difficult than Warp Zone 8. (_ _;) But I'm doing the best that I can to entirely wipe off this illness.

Meme available for all

sentiment: happy~
harmony: "Atashi no Machi, Ashita no Machi" by Hitomi Takahashi

Wow, I'm repeating the song for the nth time already. xD Because I really like love it. XD And speaking of meme, it's been a while since I had a meme and when I saw this on kurohawk's blog, I snatched it and decided to answer all the questions for fun. xD

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
-- NO, not now. I still enjoy being single. =D
02) What was your dream growing up?
-- At first to be a doctor but I threw that dream away in the trash can. Right now, I dream of becoming a successful businessman. xD
03) What talent do you wish you had?
-- Control one of the four elements of the world. Specifically, Earth. xD
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
-- Milk Shake ^_^
05) Favorite vegetable?
-- Almost all =D I'm a veggie lover.
06) What was the last book you read?
-- Can't remember. Does a direct sales catalogue count? =D
07) What zodiac sign are you?
-- Sagittarius
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
-- NONE!
09) Worst Habit?
-- Overexplaining and overanalyzing everything before getting to my point. The main reason others don't understand what I say.
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
-- Probably. But since I don't have my own car, will someone give me a lift?? =))
11) What is your favorite sport?
-- Volleyball and Badminton but I seldomly play sports nowadays
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
-- 65% Optimistic, 35% Pessimistic.
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
-- I dunno. =D *lol'd*
14) Worst thing ever happen to you?
-- Nah, it's too embarrassing! ~\(_ _;)/~
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
-- I'm the most addicted JPop-er of our school. No more, no less. =p
16) Do you have any pets?
-- Dogs and pests. XP *whistles*
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
-- Gahh! I'll sneak in my room and pretend that I never saw you. =p
18) What was your first impression of me?
-- I don't know. I haven't talked to you yet (to the one I got this)
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
-- cute!!! =D
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
-- I want to gain weight so that I won't be underweight forever. xD
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
-- Probably conscience.
22) What color eyes do you have?
-- Black.
23) Ever been arrested?
-- No.
24) Bottle or can soda?
-- Neither.
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
-- Earn and save it for future use.
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
-- Malls or fastfood chains.
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
-- Yeah, but I'm not afraid of them.
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
-- Spend time on my computer.
30) Do you swear a lot?
-- Not too much.
31) Biggest pet peeve?
-- novelty songs and pesky hiphop/rap songs and generic western songs. Don't like them at all. When I hear them, I get irritated immediately.
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
-- JPop
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
-- Yes.
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
-- Any dairy products and fruits, respectively.
35) Do you believe in God?
-- Yes, of course.
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
-- Well what have I been doing right now? XP

Anyone who wants to copy this meme on their journal, you are free to do so. ^_~

My Road, Tomorrow's Road

sentiment: looking at the brighter side (somehow)
harmony: "Atashi no Machi, Ashita no Machi" by Hitomi Takahashi

Even though I'm not like Hitomi Takahashi, who will move away from her town to sing this song, yet I can still relate on the song that's why I urged myself to find any good translation of the song, and I did. Credit goes to kurohawk of LJ. ^^

Before I looked into the translation, it went down to my brainstream and forced me to look at the possible positive side of my life since almost all of my life is full of pain and sorrow especially at school. It feels like I'm really the master of my own destiny.. I'm the one who makes the future for me. Well I already know this but I don't know, I let my pessimism get the best of me most of the time. Yes, I'm timid and a pessimist at times especially when no one appreciate my works and effort. And it's fine with me if someone will commit a mistake to me but when I made one, it felt like the "end of the world" for me and I apologize many times (even if it's not).

Quoting from the song:

"That's right
I'm not going to waver
I'm a bit scared, but
I'm not going to lose anymore!"

I really want to be strong for myself but yeah, I'm a bit scared sometimes. You just can't take away the nervousness most of the time even at small things. I don't know for other people but for me, yes.

"I'll throw away the things I hate about myself I just want to be true to myself I want to see all the things I haven't seen up to now"

I, uh, so wanted to do this! I want to throw away the pessimism inside myself because it doesn't give me any benefits and it lowers my self-esteem. And I so really want to be just myself, no one else but me, but I don't know other people don't see me as I want them to see me. ~\(_ _;)/~

And lastly, I will try to be a better person after every tomorrow but I can't really promise that I'll be one since it's really difficult for me. If only I could give this whole situation to those who deserve this, I could've done that for a long time.

Very Boring for a First Day of Class

If I thought that my other first class experiences are kinda devastated but today was the very worst one. I only have two subjects for today which is only from 8:00am-9:30am and 1:30pm-3:00pm. Imagine the gap! It's 4 hours straight and what's worse is that I don't have anyone to talk to even to go to! D: DD:

I just spent the first two hours sitting on a bench near our cafeteria and daydreamed of raining real hard! And what do you know? It happened just after my last class! And I came home soaking wet together with the almost pulpy plastic bag containing some few school supplies. D: And I know I already ate my pride of eating alone in the cafeteria but who won't get intimidated if you're the only one in the cafeteria utopia who was eating by yourself? And others are looking at you like you're some kind of weirdo and whatsoever glaring they're making. I really so wanted to twitch those eyes with my fork at that time!

Arrgghh, I just wanted to let this out because no one's hearing me out lately and it's not healthy to keep it to yourself, right? My school days are just getting fucked up day by day.

Reminiscing~

sentiment: fine
harmony: "Camellia" by Hitomi Shimatani

Well more of a reflection on my music preference/s and a little RL since it really happened to me. Still listening to it right now evading a little from my addiction on I've Sound. Hearing Camellia makes me remind of some things and memories. xD

Yes, before I got myself and become not just an I've enthusiast but an official I've addict, I like Hitomi Shimatani, Hitomi Takahashi and some other J-pop artists. I don't know but when I got into I've, it looks like all the loops in the maze became straight -- I mean, their music is really something which made me loyal to them. I think they're the greatest stuff that happened into my little J-pop life. :D

And as I was saying before, I was addicted to Hitomi Shimatani before, but really, not right now. I don't mean that she's a good-turned-bad artists or whatsoever but I don't know my passion for her vanished but nonetheless, I still like her songs because I collected almost 70% of her discography. And I must say, her recent releases lacked some sort of "snap" into me, I mean there's nothing special on her recent releases but I really liked her past works. ^_=

And right at this moment, even if others say I've Sound music is also deteriorating, I can't seem to agree much (but sometimes I agree as much as I want) since they're all smooth and gentle to the ears. =D Can't explain it but it has that same kind of effect on me. xD Just like my recent fave PSI-missing. No matter how uncreative is the piano riffs on the song, it felt right to me because if it will be done in another way, it'll also suck in another way or two.

And up until now, listening to good ol' JET BOY JET GIRL by Hitomi Takahashi which has been one of my faves from her. :D

Ryoga all the way to Marikina!

sentiment: happy
harmony: "Mata Ashita ne" by Sachi Tainaka

Today, me and my friend Issa went to Marikina to pick her clothes for her costrip in the upcoming UP Ame, a cosplay event that is celebrated annually at the University of the Philippines. Well that because she asked me to go with her and she shouldered all of my expenses on the trip! Wow, how generous of her. XD Although she won't be able to read this one, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BRICKED HYPOTHALAMUS!!! *bricked once again*


Well she's from Cavite and I'm from Muntinlupa City and we decided to meet at the Star Mall which is a bit nearer from my house (than hers). And as you can see the map above, you'll see the dashed lines there, you'll notice Marikina is at the northeastern part of National Capital Region and both our location were way down south so it's been a real long day for us but we enjoyed the trip (since it's my first time going there as well).

It's really strenuous to go to Marikina because we have to ride the bus, then at certain point, take the train, then enter a mall that will lead you to another near train station (actually it's actually far by foot! |D;;) then you'll ride a jeepney. *Whew* it's really far away and I can't really explain how I become dumbfounded at the surroundings since it's really my first time going at that city.

We departed from Star Mall at 11:30am and we managed to arrive at our destination at 2:15pm because we still had lunch and include the times we got lost at the Marikina Public Market! |D;; And so our Ryoga team has yet another member! :)) Even after we got the costume, we still had the trouble of getting out of the place. *lol'd* I guess it's already in our genes to get lost in such places. XD

I managed to arrive home at 7:00pm because there's still heavy traffic (both people and vehicular traffic, I mean! |D;;) along the way (although we started on our way on home at 4:15pm! D:). It's been a while since we were together and while on the way, we talked about a lot of things varying from anime talks to personal (and even confidential) talks and somehow, it's a good thing, we were never bored at each other. XD

And we're still going to see each other at Saturday since we're going to attend the UP Ame. =D

*Whew* I was really tired from the journey that's why after 1 hour, I got my forty winks at an instant. |D;; Well who wouldn't be able to sleep when you had only almost 4 hours of sleep and a very long and strenuous day ahead? Any insomniacs like me will be K.O'd at times like this. I hope it stays that way since I have to adjust for my schedule this second semester. I have an 8:00am class during Tuesdays and Thursdays! Oooh, the deception!! T___T

*looks at the clock* Looks like I'll have to sleep since it's already midnight. And so the very long day ends here. :DD

A Pre-winter Menstrual-like Syndrome

sentiment: somehow cooling down
harmony: "portamento" by Mami Kawada

Oh yeah, it has been a very long LONG day for a school enrollment and what did I benefit from it? Nothing, really. D: I almost got myself a heat stroke from the extreme hot weather, I wasn't able to pay my tuition fee because of the over long line in the Departmental Office (they couldn't get any shitty with the enrollment system. DD: I spend the whole time standing in front of the DO just to get that dipshit subjects and assessment form), and looks like my very own effort to keep in touch (with other people) was not very much appreciated, and like whatever, Fred you're such a loser. |D;; It's a bit long story -- I just didn't waste my effort --- my time, and my money! o__O;;

Really I've had enough one day of ranting these adversities. OoOoh how I wish I could just dissolve myself and get the hell outta here. I'm sick of this, really but what's worse, I can't express what I felt at that time (to those people) because my tongue and conscious won't really let me but the inner DEVIL side really wants to release its trident and kill those people. They just fucked off my day. =c

And just when I arrived at home, I was able to shout at dearest Eunice who will celebrate her birthday today. Ah imouto-chan, gomen ne. I wasn't able to pull back my tongue because of this madness. |D;; It felt like I had a PMS. =O And I was able to answer my oka-san with a bit rudeness because of this. Gyaah~ *headdesks* Hontou ni gomen nasai, minna-san!! T~T My day's just very fucking ugly and wasted.

But right now, I cooled down a bit somehow. I hope I won't feel the same when I wake up later to pay for that shitty tuition fee. ~_~ *feels ashamed*

PSI-missing dropped but stood up again!

sentiment: really excited for next Wednesday!
harmony: "Light colors" by Lia

Yes! I thought PSI-missing will flop on the top 20 tonight due to the reason that it dropped from #11 going back to #13 last night but this night, it ranked higher by 1 making it to #12!! So much for staying at those positions... xD If this continues, surely the single will be at the range of #11 to #13 this coming Wednesday and I would like to know already the sales and it's weekly ranking!

So far, here's the position in the daily ranking...

Wednesday (debut) #13
Thursday (up) #11
Friday (down) #13
Saturday (up) #12

I hope it still goes up and up... ^___^