I like Avex Singers!

Feeling: Craving!!! For more JPop artists that is! =P
Currently Listening To: "~Papillon~ (Eastern Butterfly)" by Hitomi Shimatani

Yay! Imust say that most of my most fave JPop singers are signed to the Avex (Audio Visual Express) Trax. According to good ol' wiki, Avex Trax is one of the largest independent record labels in the world, since they are not associated with any of the "Big Four" (Sony BMG, EMI, Universal and Warner). And Avex was Japan's leading dance record company during the nineties, and continues producing and recording some of Japan's most famous J-pop singers. Avex Trax also provides theme music soundtracks to many anime and a few video games. Imagine that!? =O What a big company! No wonder majority of the famous J-pop, J-trance and dance tracks came from their artists just like Kumi Koda, Ayumi Hamasaki, Namie Amuro, BoA, Nana Katase, Dream, Do As Infinity, Hitomi Shimatani, Hinoi Team etc. And not to mention, they have Sublabels that serves as an extension of the company which are more oriented on a particular genre of music. An example of their Sublabel is the Cutting Edge which the artists are more rock-oriented. Nanase Aikawa and OLIVIA (Olivia Lufkin/OLIVIA inspi' REIRA) are some of the artists here (Anna Tsuchiya belongs to another sublabel named Mad Pray Records).^^

I really like the trance/house musics that Avex artists perform! For me, they are like top-class musics that is incomparable to the ones in Western. It's unique in a way that I love it more than the English song/dance tracks now. XD~ gosh, I'm really loving Avex lately and I think more or less 50% of my anime/jpop mp3 playlist came from the Avex Trax. Amazing! XD~ Nyahaha! Maybe that's the reason why in my RP King of JPop, the one who will won the first place in the singing contest will win a singing contract to Avex Trax! Nyahaha! =P talk about funny stuffs about RP nyahaha! Well then have to fill up my day again with dances and pop musics! Songs that came from Avex Trax that is! Sore ja! *puts earphones to ears*

Moving On...

Feeling: I'm happy now! ^___^

Currently Listening To: "Precious" by Mami Kawada

Well... it's been two weeks (?) since I changed my layout. XD too soon! Hahaha! I just want the world to know that I'm alive and kicking again! After a couple of days of being dramatic and emonesz, here I go again! XD~ Maybe I'm just fed up of being sad and decided to throw all the sorrow and jump out for joy! It's not that I forgot all my problems... It's just that I don't want them to outsmart me! Hahaha! =) I won't let any problems destroy my sanity!

My blog's main color has gone back to being red and I really missed it. LOL= hahaha! XD= Well it's just that I really love the color red! =)

Oh and if you'll notice, the only post that is appearing in your screen now is this post only. Why? It's because I don't want to see my melodramatic posts for a while (It reminds me of something I don't want to think about! =P). But if you insist on seeing/reading it, then go ahead and search it in my navi. Hahaha! But I'm going to increase the posts visible once I posted again these days. ^__^

Wee~! I still have my classes tomorrow and I'm not sleeping yet! *looks on my watch* OMFG, it's already 10 minutes before 1:00 AM! I should be sleeping now! XD~ Oh well... I'll post again tonight nyahaha! Sore ja, itte kimasu! Oyasumi nasai, minna-san! ^__^ bye-bye! *waves hand*

Winter Love

As shining winter fairies come floating down
I kissed your smiling picture because I had nothing else to do
At that long line outside of the movies, we vowed
To never stand in line here together again
But since my heart is next to yours

I still miss you even as a friend
But I can't turn back ever again

I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you

Since the moment that I was alone,I've realized what true loneliness is
These overwhelming feelings in my heart that won't stop flowing out
Now, the way to love a person
Is so important that I think a person shouldn't forget it
No matter how many times my address changes
I'll never let go of that voice or that dream

Even if you love someone else as time flows by
I'll still remember you
Our destined meeting and the warmth we shared
I'm glad that it was you, and I can say it from my heart
Until we meet someday again

We can't stop the future from coming
The feeling of sadness can quickly become forever
Even if I get wounded when I'm happy
When I've fallen in love with a someone
Just alive

I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you

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The english translation of the Japanese song (JPop) "Winter Love" performed by BoA. Song can be found at her album "Made in Twenty" or her single "Winter Love".

Fred_Itachi: It's not exactly what happened to me, but somehow it's kinda related. Just ignore the word "love" and "kiss".

Worst Than Ever...

Feeling: I don't really know... I can't explain it.

Currently Listening To: "Winter Love" by BoA

I don't even know how will I start posting here in my blog. All I know is that every day passed in GSG is becoming worse than ever. Darkest than the most dark era that they experienced (before I became a member), I think. It's like an unexplainable phenomenon that everyone can't avoid ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... Because of what happened, the mods suddenly became "rebellious" in a way that they have the point. They all want to quit now... T__T so sad... It's not that I also want to quit the clan because of what's going on. It's just that it's hard to accept what's going on with the clan now... It's hard to accept that I want to cry... but I shouldn't lose strength now. I should stay strong for our unit. Because if I show my weak side, the result is that they will do the same as me. Or even quit too. T__T

I know I'm being dramatic again but I just can't help what's happening into our clan. I love GSG because it's like a second family to me... =__= And I can't stand it when all of them are verbally fighting and hurting each other. T__T Like what Lei said, even though they quitted the clan, our friendship will never end. Quite true, but why do they all have to quit so sudden that I didn't felt the flow of time? It's even worst than waking up from a nightmare. It's like stabbing yourself to death because you wanted to end all of your suffering then suddenly woke up with still all the blood flowing out of your body. =__=

To those gaidens who have quitted, please remember that Fred_Itachi would always and always be a friend and that won't change! I hope wherever you are right now, we won't build some sort of a barrier that will change your attitude towards me.

3... 2... 1... Cut the drama.

Nothing Last For Good

Feeling: Down (feeling condolent)

Currently Listening To: "Vestige" by T.M. Revolution

Today was definitely not a very good day. Many things happened in just one glance like someone already left without you noticing it at all. It was kinda bizarre for me to tell this but it's really disappointing that those person whom you expect to last will be gone in just a *snap*. It's not that we're not friends at all, but because they already left our haven. It's like cutting the thin threads that are connecting us with the scissors. Well, we're still going to have communications but you know, there will be some kind of barriers which will keep you from keeping in touch with them. It's still sad because I have to question/ask myself "why do they have to quit at a time like this?" I know I'm just stressing out myself because it's not going to be answered unless I ask them. But because I know it's a bit personal, I know they will kind of reluctant to tell me the real reason behind their actions. But I hope that there will be a time that they will tell me the reason behind it because my heart will be bugged if the questions within myself would not be answered.

There is a saying that, "There is no permanent in this world...." and "Expect the unexpected..." I know this is very true and is happening in reality but you know, it still hurts because they have become a part of your life then suddenly their going to fade away and part ways. Kuyashii ne!!? Although I'm not really that close to them (I wasn't able to chat with them during EB's, text with them, YM with them), but still, it hurts when I learned that they were going to leave our clan. It was like waking up from a worst nightmare! (I didn't expect my current theme will be associated with my feelings and what's happening right now) And it's like a part of me was torn apart because the reality can't change the fact that they were my friends and became a part of my humble and simple life. I know I can move on easily but the wound of being hurt is still inside me and whenever I think of it, I want to just sit down, do nothing and just keep quiet all by yourself.

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Reality check: I've moved on... but I'm still kind of lonely. I accepted the fact that they left us but I'm still being torned apart. I have to continue with my life and move on as if nothing happened or else it will pull me down to the deepest sorrow I might experience. Lei and Nicole, wherever you are right now, if you are reading this post of mine, I'm still your friend and no one can change that even if reality opposes it. ^__^ I hope there will be no barriers that will be built to separate our small yet memorable friendship. ^__^ Take care, my friends!

I already said what I wanted to say and I can rest now... That's it for drama.

War Against Cheapers Creeper Intruders

Feeling: A bit irritated

Currently Listening To: "Rhythm" by Fonogenico

Wah! Today is a really damn day. =_= I thought it was going to be a regular day of editing pics, visitinig the GSG forums and other daily routines. But there was an unexpected encounter while I was online in the GSG forums. It shocked me when I saw someone flooding on the Cbox.. =_= I warned them but they just ignored me until it became a ruckus. I panicked a bit and decided to contact one of the mods (he was actually sleeping when I texted him) so that it could be resolved. Well, yeah it was resolved... temporarily. And peace has returned to the cbox... =_= Whoever that intruder is, he IS really annoying!!! Why? He used other names and posted in the cbox, and he used my forum nick for pitt's sake. =_= What a cheapster! Did he think that he could ruin and stain up my name by doing that? That was his stupid mistake really. And he even involved my poor cbox here in my blog! T_T bad intruder! And you intruder if you ARE reading this, you better not come back here and post freely in my cbox because I already banned you here in my Cbox. Nuff said.

But even though there were many unfortunate things that happened today, there were still good things that happened. Like I came up with many plans for the Anarchy Academy and Season's Call! Yay! Can't wait! XD~ And I was able to download a PV of "Rhythm" which was performed by Fonogenico and since no one in YouTube uploaded it, I initiated the uploading! XD~ nyahaha! But since I just uploaded it a while ago, it'll took a while before it can be viewed at YouTube... XD hahaha! Well that's about it for today. ^__^

It Stabbed Into my Heart

Feeling: Emoish

Currently Listening To: "Karinui" by Mamiko Noto

Wah! I just watched the episode 25 of Jigoku Shoujo (Hell Girl) and it's episode title is also "Jigoku Shoujo". o_O It's all about Ai's past before she became the Jigoku Shoujo. I was kinda sad when I watched it. I feel sad for Ai... T__T she was buried alive even if she doesn't want to! Wah! TT__TT Although her childhood friend Sentarou promised that he'll protect her at all cost, it didn't happened. Too bad... But it's because he's only the one who wants to save and protect Ai! That's unfair! All the townspeople (excluding Ai's parents) to offer her to the angry mountain god! And I didn't believe that she gives bad luck to the people there! That's totally nuts! =_= Oh well, that's what the story is... but for me, everyone deserves to enjoy life to the fullest. Even if they say you're a black sheep, or if you are a mongoloid, and even the autistic people have the right to live!

The feeling of being betrayed is really painful to the heart. I know that all of us don't want that to happen. Well, who wants that? No gullible person would agree to be called "moron", or even "idiot!" It's because we are not a perfect person! We made mistakes, we have our own incapabilities and most of all, we are not God! And we don't have the right to embarrass people in front of many people. IMO, God didn't just made us to fight, tease and discriminate others. Instead we are made to love each other as brothers and sisters.

Aww... enough drama! I've had enough! Today is Valentines' Day and I'm supposed to be happy today but I'm not really. I lost my cellphone yesterday and it looks like it will took a while before I can have a new one. And some unwanted scenes just popped into my mind and it made me all crappy. =_= Oh well, no use brooding all over it. I'll just have to take them all out of my hypothalamus! XD~

I wonder how did the Valentines' went with other people? Specially to those who went to a date with their significant others... It's not that I want to experience it... I'm just all curious that's all. I enjoy my life being a "No Girlfriend Since Birth" person. Why? Because I still don't feel having one. I haven't found the right one for me. Why enter a relationship if you're only forced to? Well, if you ask me, I'd rather be single for life than being with other person whom you don't love and doesn't deserve my love. XD (Gosh! How demanding!) Whew... I've had enough dose of dramas today. It made me all emo right now! XD

Curse This Day!

Feeling: Frustrated (Kuyashiii!!!)

Currently Listening To: "Amayadori" by kukui

Today is a really damn day for me. First, I wasn't able to catch up with the film showing early this morning. o_O Next, I lost my cellphone without my consciousness!! =_= And I got darn scolded by my father. He bathed me with muras or slang words that got into me a bit. Damn, he always blame whenever we made a mistake but we don't have the right to correct him whenever he made a mistake! Curse him! Really! I really hate that attitude of his! Is my cell phone more important than my life? I think he might feel better if he sees me in a morgue and my cellphone much more alive than me. Hmph!

Next, I wasn't able to buy my mp3 player an ear phone. The one that I bought (that my kapatid Shao bought from me) last time was already out of stock and the cheapest ear phone available there was P80.00 and I don't have extra money left. And I still have to pay our Smart Bro Monthly Bill. I'm very tired and still frustrated about what happened. Gosh, this is one helluva bad day! This is one of the worst day ever! It felt like I didn't accomplish something good today and it hit me right into my chest.

We Survive!

Feeling: Jaded yet hyper!
Currently Listening To: "We Survive" by KOTOKO

Today was a very unpredictable, freaky yet a very happy day indeed! ^__^ Despite the difficulties and embarrassments I and my friends faced awhile ago, we still manage to attend Vanitea: A Gothic Tea Party. Even though there was only few Gaidens who attended the said activity, I still enjoyed my first cosplay event! ^__^ Like what I said, I didn't expect that I'll be able to attend because, my friend who will lend me a coat had already gone to Hong Kong and I don't have a black neck tie. But I still went to FEU and those problem was resolved. I was able to borrow coat from Jenny and my kapatid Shaoran was able to lend me a dark blue neck tie! At last, problem solved. But it wasn't really finished there! I went through a lot of embarrassments like people looking all over at me while I was in a semi-corporate attire. Not only that, when I went to the CR to wet my hair (so that my imouto Jobelle could apply gel to it), 2 gays went screaming while they were on my way! X__x Yay!

2nd embarrassing moment: At the Bangkal Community Complex (where Vanitea was held), I lost/dropped my wallet somewhere. When I asked the guard if they found a navy green wallet, they said they don't know... And there was this girl who wore a black Lolita who later I found out that she was the one who got my wallet! And I was even "special-mentioned" that time. I don't know if I will feel happy or embarrassed at that time because she really called me in my complete name. It was like this, "Calling the attention of Resurreccion Jr., Wilfredo H. of San Beda College Alabang!" My first expression was a BIG OMG then ran towards the center and apologized to her few times because of my clumsiness yet she replied, "That's okay". It was really kind of her!^__^

Hmm about what I wore for the event? I'd say that my style was original although it's a combination of Hyde & Gackt (at first when the gel was still on it's job). Then I suddenly remembered that my style was almost the same like Hanazawa Rui of Hana Yori Dango live-action but with out the gray long sleeve. But when the coat arrived, Jenny told that it was for yakuzas! XD~ hahaha... And we took a lot of pictures! Yay! I'm going to post it here once I get some! XD=

Overall, this day has a lot of twist and turn yet I really enjoyed it! I hope we could do this again someday! XD And that would already be my second time and I expect that I already have confidence within myself so that I wouldn't be shy parading with my friends! Hahaha! Well that's it for tonight.

Temporary Comeback

Feeling: Saturated

Currently Listening To: "Aizome" (PV Rip) by Mamiko Noto

Yay! I just returned from our immersion in Brgy. Sampiruhan, Calamba City, Laguna and at first, I thought I won't enjoy this activity because it was kind of "out of my league" but really it wasn't! In contrary, i enjoyed our immersion and I learned some new things about the life in the depressed area, how are they bonded, etc. All I could say is that our foster parents & siblings were really open and we (me & my partner SJ) really felt like we were just in our own houses.^__^ Plus, I got close with SJ because even though we are partners for this activity and we are living in the same village, we haven't met and talked to each other before and it was a good opportunity. Although we are just living near the lake side, small and shabby place, it was a memorable experience I won't forget in my entire life. I wish that they will be strong as they are now so that they would be able to continue on their life even though they are financially unstable.

And tomorrow will be another day of journey far away from home -- and that is my retreat in Capuchin Retreat Center in Lipa City, Batangas. I'm not expecting much on this retreat either but I hope I could reflect on my wrong doings and other things that I neglected in the past and today. Once again, I'm going to miss my blog *hugs once again*. XD~ I'm going to be away from civilization again for 3 days and 2 nights. XD And I'm already excited to read my imouto-vamp Nikki's retreat letter for me.^__^ But I know I will be reading that one of these days.(^_=) Thanks imouto-vamp!^__^

Before The Departure

Feeling: Emo & Lonely

Currently Listening To: "HEAVEN" by Ayumi Hamasaki

Tomorrow will be a new day again for immersion and I'm a bit nervous because it will be my first time to experience such activity. And I feel sad for some reason... because I'm going to leave again... I will miss the PC, Anime/JPop mp3 collection, GSG forum, and of course I will really miss my blog! =_= Well, other than that, I still feel sad but I really don't know why. Or maybe it's because of what I am listening right now. T_T It got me all emo because the first time I heard "HEAVEN" by Ayumi Hamasaki, humble tears fell down from my sad eyes. But somehow it describes my mood right now.

It's not that I am happy. I AM happy because I met some new faces and friends, I got the time to be with them and enjoyed the activities and bondings. But somehow, it felt like I will leave all of them them that won't return anymore. Maybe that explains why I feel sad right now. And right after my immersion, my three-day retreat will be up next. I bet it's going to be lonely once again since I still don't have a roommate and I'm still uncertain if my friends will really accompany me there (I really doubt it). Oh well, have to prepare for tomorrow... Although I'm not really excited. I'll get over this. Well, that's it for now. I should sleep now because it's already 11:45 PM in my watch and I have to be in school at 7:00 AM. Goodbye for now, my dearest blog. I will miss you! T__T

Bumster's Lair

Feeling: Lazy
Currently Listening To: "PERSONAL" by Aya Ueto

Wah~ I'm too lazy to move here... =_= I just realized that I was too early for school today. And I was late for my Statistics class that's why (for the nth time), I cut it. And wanna know what time is my next class? It's 3:00 PM.o_o wah I'm going to wait for f***ing 5 hours just to attend that my Phil. History class.o_o Any minute, I know I will be hungry again... x__X Instead of saving my money, I will spend it for food... Omigash! Why do I have to experience this long vacancy? x_X But oh well, I still have to finish my homework for Phil. History... XD~

Ahh yes! Tomorrow will be the joint EB for KOTF & DA at SM Mall of Asia. I'm kinda excited since I will meet some new faces again. And as the KOTF Headmaster, that would be a big pleasure to me! ^__^ And oh yeah, starting this Saturday, my schedule will be uber hectic and I don't know if I can manage to do all this. And I won't be posting here in my blog for a couple of days. I will miss my blog... T_T *hugs blog* If you want to know my schedule this coming Saturday, take a lookie here:

Feb. 3 - KOTF & DA Joint EB
Feb. 4-5 - Immersion (for my BLF Class)
Feb. 6-8 - 3rd year Retreat
Feb. 9 & 11 - Rest Day
Feb. 10 - Vanitea: A Gothic Tea Party
Feb. 12 - Seminar for Marketing Students at PICC, Pasay City

Oh no... This is going to be an ache in the butt! x__X I hope I can make it... Wish me luck... =_=