When Are You Ready To Say Goodbye?

sentiment: reflecting

harmony: "See You ~Chiisana Eien~" by KOTOKO & MELL

I am being sentimental again... yare yare... Oh well, I think it can't be helped to feel this way sometimes specially if you're listening to a heart-warming and sentimental song. It's just kept bugging me and it would be better if I would take this out of my friggin' mind. So when will I be ready to say adieu, sayonara, ciao, or goodbye to my friends and loved ones? As you know, I'm still not ready for now and death is one of the events that I'm afraid to happen. Yes, even lil ol' me is afraid of death, but why am I afraid? Well it's because of one main reason, and that is because I haven't done all my deeds in this world. My duties and responsibilities, who will continue that if ever I will die after a day or two? Or will it turned out fine to pass it to someone? Was it a very good idea? So many questions that enters my mind that I, myself can't answer for now.

I'd say, for now, I am still afraid of the coming future because who knows when your life will be taken? I dunno, I'm not a fortune-teller or even if it was foretold by a fortune-teller, I won't take it seriously because it's just a guess, a wild hypothetical guess with the use of cards or astrology. We are the ones who are making our destiny so anytime we could change it. But of course, the big question mark is on how will you take the wheel of life. I am not God who can die and will rise after 3 days of death. I am just a mere human with no idea on when he will say goodbye to this world. You may say I'm totally clueless but that's how it is. I can't just guess the date or believe what the death clock says, right? Others may perceive me as superficial or utu-uto or even utak-biya. Well that's totally unlikely of me.

So what's the purpose with all of these fuzz and commotions? None really, I just want to have a reflection on what's on my head right now. Yeah I don't deny that I am afraid of my own death as of now but I know that there will come a time that I will be on my deathbed and will be fully prepared for my upcoming second life. But all I could say is, PLEASE NOT NOW... I am not begging to prolong my life, since I am a hyper, active and healthy man as of now but I just want to say about these death thingies, that I still don't want to... Because there's still my family and dearest friends that I will return to. I still want to have a gig and memorable moments with my dearest friends (you know who you are!!) and experience more things that I haven't been experienced. There's still a lot more to learn in this world. But you know, I will accept how my wheel of life will turn... If it will end someday (even if it's near), I will definitely prepare for it because I want to say goodbye properly to my friends and loved ones. Definitely, I will.

"I didn't understand those words you

said when you approached me then if

I could return once again, I'd want to

embrace you closely and touch your heart..."

Surely... The days that begin with goodbye
will come quietly wrapped in kindness.

You walk off without looking back.
But in the not-too-distant future,
I'm sure I will catch up to you.

excerpt from the english translation of "See You ~Chiisana Eien~" by KOTOKO & MELL (courtesy of animelyrics).

Spiral ~> finished!

sentiment: unsatisfied
harmony: "Itoshii Hito he" by Sachi Tainaka

Yes, finally I was able to finish watching Spiral ~ Suiri no Kizuna. Well I am expecting that I will be unsatisfied with its ending since according to my calculations, the anime was finished sonner than the manga. So, in short, the anime is not complete. Yes, Ayumu wasn't able to solve the mystery of the Blade Children. Even Kiyotaka has only special participation. I thought he has a major role in the anime but that was my mistake. But nonetheless, I still like the story... because it's mysteries are way beyond my thinking skills.

I will be looking forward on downloading it's manga and I hope the mystery about the Blade Children will be solved. xD I don't want to leave an anime with a big question mark on my face. lolz~

Spiral = no vain!?

sentiment: euphoric
harmony: "no vain" by MELL

Yeah! I'm almost finish Spiral ~ Suiri no Kizuna. xD I have downloaded 24 episodes and there's one more episode to go. xD Although I know that this will have an unsatisfactory ending but I'm still excited of what will happen in the last episode. I guess I have to download it's last episode ASAP. xD= getting addicted with it.

Speaking of addiction and legal tranquilizers, I still haven't got fed up or saturated with MELL's no vain ... xD I don't know but maybe it's just right for me. xD I'm quite frustrated that I wasn't the first to post the video so I haven't got the most comments for the video. T__T 2 other no vain PVs got the more feedbacks. >_< oww... but there's still Veoh... but I highly doubt that they will comment because my Beehive PV didn't got any comments and that's the only video of Beehive available in Veoh. Errm... oh well... good luck on next video upload.

"amoy-hayop"

sentiment: laughing
harmony: "Anata ga Ita Mori" by Jukai

This post was supposed to be posted last night but thanks to my sister who used the internet for such a short time *with sarcasm*. You might be thinking that this post might be pure tagalog no? Well, not quite. I just quoted that statement by my classmate who was not in her right state. Yeah, she's kinda stupid sometimes although I'm stupid too at times. :P So I'm gonna share this funny thought of mine to you, mr./ms. blog-reader. xD

It started like this, it was our class in Industrial & Agriicultural Marketing, and I was like 45 minutes late? o_O; well, don't blame me. Blame those shit buses in the way. Anyway, going back, our prof was teaching us all about the agricultural business and the history of Don Manolo Blvd. (a street in Alabang Hills Village where our school is located) that it was a large field in the past years. Until it came to the point where I was asked about what industry will I enter in the future? I answered I'm into food/garment retailing while one of my classmates mentioned the exotic foods like the horse and not to mention the kalabaw or carabao.

Then, 'that' particular classmate of mine said that she doesn't want cara-beef because it was "amoy-hayop" (in English, it smells like animal) and tough. My prof was kind of laughing too! Because logically speaking, Carabao is an animal right? Of course, it would smell like an animal! I was laughing at the moment too because of her stupidity... X3 warui, warui! haha! But really it was funny if you could only witness it. xD haha! But of course, she clarified that cara-beef has an unpleasant odor that she can't take and explain. Or maybe, she was pertaining to masangsang nee? Maybe, who knows when you don't know what is she talking about. She's like telling us basta! ganun mabaho talaga... so who would know?

Being An I've Geek

sentiment: geeky
harmony: "rush" by KOTOKO

I just noticed that these past few days, I was just concentrating on finding an information about the I've Girls. I wonder why... but you know what? I felt excited while providing informations in Wikipedia with the informations/data that they don't know yet which of course, I already know. Yeah, I'm being a very keen of viewing infos about the I've members specifically Mami Kawada and MELL. I just found out that MELL is also going to release another maxi single this August 29 entitled "Virgin's high!" which will be used as an opening theme for the anime "Sky Girls". Yeah, both her and Mami-sama are getting promotions lately and that's good to hear since I like both of them. ^^,

Not only that, I also managed to gave info about Kaori Utatsuki in Wikipedia (English) too! ^^, I just want to provide some good and juicy info about her because as I see it, it's really unfair that she didn't got any info since she's going to release her 1st maxi single this coming August 1. And the most proud accomplishment for today, I was able to improve and "beautify" the infos about Mami Kawada in Wikipedia! And that, I'm proud of myself! ^^,

By the way, (I'm just going to share it) this coming month of August, there will be a lot of singles by I've that I am going to download. All the wednesdays (except August 15) will have a single release by the I've Girls. Here's the list:

"Shining Stars Bless" - Kaori Utatsuki (Aug.1)
"Get my way!" - Mami Kawada (Aug.8)
"Naraku no Hana" - Eiko Shimamiya (Aug.22)
"Virgin's high!" - MELL (Aug.29)

My anime/jpop playlist will multiply again! *jumps for excitement* I'm excited for the "Get my way!" and "Virgin's high!" single! I do hope that it will be August so that I can hear them!!! XD

I want to cosplay!!!

Feeling: Perked Up
Currently Listening To: "FLY TO THE TOP" by MELL

yay! whenever I listen to this song, I feel like I'm going to be hyper for the whole time that I'm going to use the PC.xD That's why if you can see, I feel perked up right now. The tune and voice are also perky and hyper (although it's a song for Eroge) that's why it affects my mood. "FLY TO THE TOP! Hateshinaku!" *awwoooh* I love perky trance-techno! <3

Anyways, seeing the cosplayers last saturday in the toy convention makes me want to cosplay too... xD But as you know, I'm trying my best to earn money because I want to experience how to be a cosplayer just this once. xD My first cosplay was not that something big because it's more of a costume party. I am planning to join the Hero Con Cosplay Competition this coming autumn and I'm planning to cosplay Black Jack. Yes, the greatest surgeon in the world. xD~ But I'm still having problems with the clothes, hair and of course, with his face. As you can see, he has a scar on his face. Not to mention, I also have a problem with the hair. But I hope that time my hair would be long enough.

I hope this plan will continue because I desperately want to experience cosplaying!! xD I'm willing to take all the risk as long as I can experience a good cosplay competition... xD

Mami Kawada's Upcoming 4th Maxi Single!

Feeling: Euphoric
Currently Listening To: "Carpe Diem" by Mami Kawada

Yes! Mami Kawada is getting promotions and getting famous lately... xD Good for her because she has the talent, guts and of course, she deserves it! I just visited on her main website (川田まみ : GENEON OFFICIAL WEB SITE) and saw on the "News" part that in August 8, 2007 she will release her 4th maxi single entitled 「Get my way！」 and it will be used as the 2nd ending theme for my favorite anime series Hayate no Gotoku! xD Yay! I'm uber excited right now!!! I want it!! I want it!!!!!! I WANT IT ALREADY!!!! XD *jumps* but for Mami Kawada, I will patiently wait for that single to be released... xD I wonder which song will get the PV... That I will find out too soon! xD For now, there's still no single cover but once I found out that the single cover's out, I will post it here. ^___^

But in fairness, it's release date is just close to the release date of the opening theme of Nanatsuiro Drops (which is the Shining Star Bless) by Kaori Utatsuki, a co-I've member. And it will release earlier than the "Naraku no Hana", the opening theme for the horror anime series, Higurashi no Naku Koro ni Kai which will be performed by Eiko Shimamiya, also a co-I've member. Why am I wondering? Because I discovered the release date for Naraku no Hana first than Get My Way! I just found it odd but nonetheless, I'm still excited for them! And in fairness again, KOTOKO has no upcoming single for now... I guess Mami Kawada is getting really famous in the I've now and that makes me happy. Well KOTOKO is still the most famous but I hope that there will come the time that KOTOKO and Mami Kawada will be equal in popularity, if you know what I mean. xD

The Living Hell

Feeling: Relieved
Currently Listening To: "Tenjou wo Kakeru Monotachi" by Love Planet Five ~I've Special Unit~

Yay! Just got back home from our cousin's house in Sta. Rosa, Laguna. I was kinda relieved I got back home and I'll be able to post here in my beloved blog! *huggles bloggy* I missed this! *huggles more* Well I was glad that my mom & I will keep my cousin company while her grandma (which is not a blood-related grandma since it was from his father's side) but our stay there ended up rather dead boring. When we arrived there yesterday, we dropped off his grandma at Balic-balic, Sampaloc, Manila where she will stay for her scheduled general check up. Then we went back off to Sta. Rosa. When we arrived there, it was still kinda fine but there came a time that we didn't talked for long that it made me feel bored. And worst of all, I wasn't able to bring my mp3 player because my big sis borrowed it. And on top of that, I have no prepaid credits. Sore loser.

This morning, I woke up with a headache because I slept for 11 hours... yeah I overslept again. My cousin was not there since it was a school day leving me and my mom only in the house. It was really a living hell that it's so dead boring. The TV can only reach few channels and without channel 2. Crap... Aside from that, no entertainment was left. No radio, no computer no nothing. And I was expecting that my father will arrive early but he f*cked things up and arrived at evening. My mom and I were super bored to death because we can do nothing about it. I thought I was gonna die out there because of boredom but thankfully, I didn't.

And now, I just got back home and I'm really relieved that this day will finish peacefully. I missed listening to my playlist! XD Oh God, thank goodness I'm back. It sure is different if you're at somebody's home than in your own house. I'm just happy that I'm back here at our house.

So Much For Myself

Feeling: Very Tired & Sleepy

Currently Listening To: "SHIFT -Sedai no Mukou-" by Lia

I now I'm stressing myself too much but I just wanted to post something before I go to slumber. Well why am I very tired and stressed? It's entirely my fault by cramming last night and did my Practicum Report. I slept for 3 hours and I haven't got a good sleep ever since. I'm used to cramming but of course it could be so strenuous specially today is a very busy day... for gimmmicks, that is. Well I can feel the drowsiness now but I can still hold on.

School life today was boring. The professor for our first class which is a major subject wasn't able to make it. So I'll have to wait for 3 hours for my next class. Well it's okay at least I was able to finish my weekly journal in my practicum report which is just handwritten. Financial Management class s*cks. It was a boring one and the prof is just not a so-so good prof.

Then after school, I went to SM Megamall to attend the Toy Convention and watched those who participated in the cosplay event. It also served as the 5th anniversary EB for GSG but it wasn't that useful and successful because I just saw and talked to Kakurine for a few moments then I just bought a hotdog sandwich and I never saw her again even when we decided to go home. We weren't able to talk about the clan & forum matters but it's okay at least I got to hang out with Rei-chan, Joie-chan, Pau-chan, XLi imouto and the others. Thanks to those whom I got to hang out with!

It was a short yet strenuous day for me but it went smoothly. And now I can go to sleep. *presses the remote control off*

Fiery Week

Feeling: Tired

Currently Listening To: "Kanashimi no Mori" by Mami Kawada

Waah! The first week of school is very much full of surprises to me that me go "WAAHH!" First of all, the grading system for our school is now zero-based which means if you got 0 then it's 0 not 50. You shouldn't fail your quizzes/exams and always pass your effin' projects so that you can pass the subject. What the!? I can't cut my class anymore if that's the case... =__=

And my schedules are not that great plus I get OP'd again... It's like when I'm there, I felt like I didn't existed before them! hontou, hontou! Yes I felt like I was a ghost... Well I know I'm not talking but what will I talk about? When I can't relate into what they're talking about, yes I don't get them. And the worst of all, I haven't brought my mp3 player! Sore loser! T_T

I still have to finish my practicum report because I will pass that on Saturday... demmet I haven't started a thing hahaha! xD here comes the cramming again... xD I dunno maybe cramming is my real middle name... It's not that I like to cram but as you know, I'm a big sloth so don't expect big from me... unless it is my interest... You got that right again! That sh*t practicum report is not my thing. Whatever! Although it is necessary I still don't like making one. It's such a pain in the arse. Hacen't the staffs in our school not satisfied with the works that we did from our OJT. What a drag.

The BEST Q&A

Feeling: just fine
Currently Listening To: "Hero's Come Back" by nobodyknows+

Those who will get tagged later, it is optional if you want to do this. I'm just killing time. xD since I'm downloading Spiral Episode 12.

Best Skills: as of now, graphic designing, writing skills (maybe!) and I have a knack of finding and discovering great animes and J-music. just kidding! lol~ hahah!

Best Talents: dancing? maybe but aside from that, nothing! I suck at singing! haha!

Best Dreams: I became the greatest warrior in the world! I'm not kidding! =P

Best/Greatest Fears: aside from God, I'm extremely afraid of heights! I hate high places! I'm also afraid of eating very exotic foods that in my opinion is not edible!

Best Books: Well I'm not a bookworm but I'd say "Stainless Longganisa"! lol just kidding. =P Jessica Hagedorn's "dream jungle" is the best that I have read so far.

Best Foods: Uhmm too many to mention... yeah the space won't be enough!

Best Drinks: choco and milk drink! fruit shakes too!

Best Anime: uhmm as of now, Shakugan no Shana and Hayate no Gotoku!

Best Manga: Rurouni Kenshin and Naruto

Best Genres of Music: techno-trance! techno-trance is <3 <3~ House, Euro-techno/Eurobeat, house and of course ballad.^.^

Best Songs: As of now, "Immoral", "eclipse -UETSU MIU style-" by Mami Kawada, "Velocity of Sound" by MOMO. yes, it's techno and trance! xD

Best Subjects: Math! =P

Best Singers: Mami Kawada (=P), Lia, YUI, Hitomi Shimatani, Bonnie Pink, SNoW, Angela Aki, Yoko Takahashi. XD

Best Video Games: I'm not plaing video games anymore but from what I played, Final Fantasy series, Legend of Dragoon, Chrono Trigger, Chrono Cross, Tekken and Soul Calibur. ^^,

Best Schools: a~re? I can't say which is the best school since all of the schools have their own edge and competitive advantage! xD

Best Seiyuus: Romi Paku, Souichiro Hoshi, Tomokazu Seki, Rie Kugimiya, Shizuka Itoh, Hitomi Nabatame, Fumiko Orikasa, Akira Ishida.

Best RPs: King of JPop, Anarchy Academy, and of course, Season's Call. ^^v

Best layout: Shining Stars Bless (in blogger). It took me a few days to make that layout while the others only took a few hours.

Best Gifts: unforgettable memories and letters from my friends!

Best Things You've Ever Done: to be able to manage my anime/jpop mp3 collection and learn web/graphic designing all by myself. xD but of course with little assistance from my friends!

Best Careers: Being trusted as the mod of some forums/clans, being (one of the_ King of Jpop here in the Philippines! =P

Best Clothing Getup: Simple yet "carry". xD

Best Scenes: Everytime when I'm with my closest friends!

Best Friends (in random order): Nikki-chan, Natsumi-chan, Martin, Issa, Mhai, Rei-chan, Ikki, tan-tan, Kakurine, Judith, Joie-C, Cielo, Lei, Charles, Kristina, Kuros.

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Feeling: not so good (my shoulder hurts)

Currently Listening To: "Spillage" by MOMO

Aww... I'm not feeling so good lately. You might be wondering about the title of this post, right? Well, I just can't think of a good title so I just came out of that title. Not that catchy, nee? I can't blame myself for it though. My mind is kinda empty right now even though I accomplished something big (for me) today.

Well, it's not an RP post... I haven't posted anything for RPs today. I just don't feel like it since my shoulder hurts a bit. Who wouldn't have got hurt if you assist your own otou-san to carry the heavy-weight air conditioner outside your room to clean? Well I didn't clean the aircon but I helped him carry it in the garage. Although I was just assisting my otou, it's not a big joke and don't think it wouldn't hurt for me. Well it hurts! After carrying that thing in the garage, it felt like my shoulders were stretched in its limit. Who wouldn't have got hurt if I, a 100-lb person, would carry a thing that is 3x heavier than me even if I just assisted? Helping is not a bad thing but if you got your shoulder sore, then I shouldn't have helped with that. Curse this! >_<

The biggest accomplishment that I did for today is that I was able to gather almost all of Mami Kawada's solo songs. And I posted it in my Multiply account. I have finally found "Magnolia" after ten gold years! o_o But I still can't find the "ROOTS OF THE ROOTS". I dunno if this song is somewhat similar with her "Roots". Who knows? I haven't heard the "ROOTS OF THE ROOTS". And today is the first time that I've heard her "CARPE DIEM" and I was looking for it too! *tears of joy* finally! I found them! *jumps for joy* xD

I was able to find "Spillage" by MOMO too.^^, And I am listening to it right now! I'm getting addicted with MOMO too although she's not that famous unlike Mami. xD I still like her ballad and most of all her "Velocity of Sound"! xD techno-trance is RABU-RABU! xD

Breeze of Boredom

Feeling: still bored

Currently Listening To: "The Maze" by Mami Kawada

Deep down in the ground... Take it time to time... Now it's up to live life again.

-- excerpt from the song.

First of all, Happy 5th anniversary GSG! ^__^

Gah! I'm still bored of my life. I feel like I am lost and out of this world. x_X And because of this boredom that I am feeling, I just visited all of the websites that I usually go... I didn't post much as you can see, I'm saturated of what is happening. And I hate to expect... because when I expect there's nothing happening. Yeah so if you "expect the unexpected", then will "the unexpected be expected also"? Oh my god, I'm getting ambiguous of what is happening with life today. o_o

I am lost in the maze... no can flee... no one can be saved...

I'm getting a headache because of the boredom. I wish that I could already have classes so I can keep myself busy for a while even though I don't like staying at school either. At least I have something to do rather than slump myself here in the house or in the net without something new. I am bored... extremely VERY super duper bored. It felt like 10 minutes is already an hour for me. I wish I could use Xianghua right now and play Soul Calibur 2. Oh how I missed those times that I am using her. I missed swinging her sword and stomping on my enemies' head. Yes, I am still not satisfied of being a Platinum Knight of the Cerberus because I know I could aim higher although I know I'm already top 6 in my chosen team with 210+ wins and 55 losses.

Stand up for your right! Spread your wings and fly...

I wish I could get out of the maze before 5:12 run out. <-- I was just kidding. xD because that was the length of the song that I am listening right now. ^__^ And I'm getting kinda addicted with it again that's why I recommend this song to imouto Nikki-chan and have it as the 3rd ending theme for Anarchy Academy. Hahaha!

In the verge of excitement

Feeling: a bit guilty

Currently Listening To: "Harmonia" by Lia

You must be wondering why am I feeling guilty no? Well it's not really because of a true crime but half of it though. xD It's because I posted a single in the Crossover forum which is forbidden according to the rules. It's not because I want to violate the rules but when I get my hands of in the Neva Eva single, I decided to upload and posted it for a good cause -- it is to let everyone had a copy (even if its download) and share it to the world. I felt like when I posted that song, I've forgotten the rules of posting a single in a thread... Oh how stupid of me really... x__X

I hope Rinoa will forgive me... huhu... That would be the first and last time that I will violate and do stupidity in the Crossover...-__-

Setting that aside, I'd like to say that this is one of the most boring days I've ever spent... Nothing special happened... No new RP posts... no other single downloads... no new games... no new shows in the TV... no nothing... I've got fed up of browsing the net all over again with no new important infos except for one.... xD I've found out that Shakugan no Shana will have a second season this coming autumn 2007! I've watched the promo in Veoh few hours ago! I will collect the episodes again! hahaha! So much for excitement nee? But other than that, there's nothing more and it made me saturated. Maybe it's one of the reasons why I did that 'crime' a while ago because life's so boring today.. No one even made me feel special today... hahaha I was just kidding... =P But I really want something that will delight my saturated feelings right now. It's like I want to go somewhere but I don't know where and the worst, I can't go somewhere. =__= oh so boring that I could whine all day long. >_<